Alexia
Est. Contributor
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- Diaper Lover
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i feel like i'll never be a cute girl that i want to be. i only kinda look like a girl if i take a picture from the right angle, hide half my face behind my hair, and put a filter on the picture. otherwise i just look like a regular skinny guy with long hair
i can't get rid of the thought that i'll never look like anything more than a classic tranny, i can't look at myself without getting anxious at the sight of all my body hair and facial hair, i can't listen to the sound of my voice without feeling sad, i can't even imagine myself truly being a real girl with no ass hair and a sweet voice..
the only way to feel like myself is to be alone in my bedroom in the dark where i can't see myself and can stay silent so i don't hear my male voice and can use my imaginary girl voice in my mind. but that only gets me so far before i start to cry again.. i want to look at myself and feel happy, not be sad about how non girly i really look.
i just hate everything about myself. i know i could try to go through the transition, but that still wouldn't get rid of all the body hair, and i hate the thought of having to constantly eat those expensive hormone pills for the rest of my life.
it's my dream to have a lesbian relationship, but it all feels so far out of reach when i look at myself and see all that disgusting body hair. it just makes me feel so sad and hopeless.. :'(
i can't get rid of the thought that i'll never look like anything more than a classic tranny, i can't look at myself without getting anxious at the sight of all my body hair and facial hair, i can't listen to the sound of my voice without feeling sad, i can't even imagine myself truly being a real girl with no ass hair and a sweet voice..
the only way to feel like myself is to be alone in my bedroom in the dark where i can't see myself and can stay silent so i don't hear my male voice and can use my imaginary girl voice in my mind. but that only gets me so far before i start to cry again.. i want to look at myself and feel happy, not be sad about how non girly i really look.
i just hate everything about myself. i know i could try to go through the transition, but that still wouldn't get rid of all the body hair, and i hate the thought of having to constantly eat those expensive hormone pills for the rest of my life.
it's my dream to have a lesbian relationship, but it all feels so far out of reach when i look at myself and see all that disgusting body hair. it just makes me feel so sad and hopeless.. :'(