Hello,
We all make silly purchases at times.
My partner knows I like to dress up at times so she’s not surprised when I have some parcels arrive.
She doesn’t know about my little girl side and when I have a binge of little girl stuff, my biggest worry is all the parcels arriving. Best laid plans and timing, they don’t arrive to plan. The number of times I’ve nearly been caught out with littleforbig nappies, frilly or printed plastic panties, pacifiers, baby girl clothes and dresses I can’t count.
I have the regret from the moment I press the button to buy. Once or twice I’ve cancelled the order via Amazon but others I couldn’t.
I start to think of excuses and alike but I just know I’ll get caught out one day, maybe subconsciously that’s what I want. In the mean time the fear and panic is almost paralysing.
Recently I’ve become much more selective and careful about how and when I buy and also try to be content with being a big girl. Luckily that involves dressing as a schoolgirl or little girl maybe 6 or 7 but no nappies or baby pants with my partner.
I do dream that one day she might suggest some training panties or precautions for her little girl. I think the chances are Bob Hope and no hope but we can dream.
Just be careful and recognise the cost of binge when you are struggling to hide stuff is purging and that’s when you get depressed about all of the lovely things you let go and you have further regret.
I guess it’s about being conservative and breaking the cycle.
Touch wood I seem to have done that and all but my little stuff is open in my wardrobe which she has open access to.
That came with a price of coming out to her which could of been disastrous but actually, she’s been great I just regret not having done it sooner.
I hope some of that helps.
Jenny x