Reference post for understanding here.
This morning I had a total melt-down. I woke to fresh warmth in my diaper. Ok, I thought, no problem, and turned to wake my husband, as I do every morning. Already nervous about the doctor's appointment today, I fumbled with everything as I tried to prepare to change myself. It was when I dropped the powder and caused a powder bomb that I started to cry and my sweet husband calmly took over. He spoke softly to me, laid me back against the bed pad and rubbed my belly (which I love) and soon the morning returned to a state of peace. (Seriously, he's an understanding, amazing man.) However, as soon as he opened the diaper, he quickly covered me up with it again and I knew I was urinating...the tears, as you can imagine, started again. My husband stayed calm, waited for my body to stop voiding and quickly put a new diaper on me. Afterwards, he quickly wrapped me up with hugs and love, but it didn't do much to quell the knowledge that I've possibly fucked myself.
[ FAST-FORWARD TO THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE ]
My husband and I finally fell into chuckles on the walk inside as I tried to convince him that we should just go home, since I was dry as a bone. So we signed in and sat down, talked about this and that, and when they called my name and I stood up - gravity helped my body betray me. My husband knew as soon as he saw my shoulders slump and quickly took a moment to rub my back, pull me in close and kiss my head.
I won't bore you with the normal triage or wait and we will just skip on over to the exam.
The doctor asked many questions and I was painfully truthful. I told him I started wearing 24/7 about 2 years ago, but had never lost control - I could hold if I needed to, until recently when I started waking up wet now and then and also the recent points of uncontrolled urination during changes and possibly other times. By the end of my confessions I was in tears...again.
The doctor made some points about underlying issues that might be happening and was unsure whether my wearing actually caused my sudden uncontrolled wetting. However, he referred me to a urogynecologist stating that he would much rather have an expert in the field do the testing.
My appointment with the urogynecologist is on Monday. I will try to breathe and update as I can.
Thank you, for reading.
This morning I had a total melt-down. I woke to fresh warmth in my diaper. Ok, I thought, no problem, and turned to wake my husband, as I do every morning. Already nervous about the doctor's appointment today, I fumbled with everything as I tried to prepare to change myself. It was when I dropped the powder and caused a powder bomb that I started to cry and my sweet husband calmly took over. He spoke softly to me, laid me back against the bed pad and rubbed my belly (which I love) and soon the morning returned to a state of peace. (Seriously, he's an understanding, amazing man.) However, as soon as he opened the diaper, he quickly covered me up with it again and I knew I was urinating...the tears, as you can imagine, started again. My husband stayed calm, waited for my body to stop voiding and quickly put a new diaper on me. Afterwards, he quickly wrapped me up with hugs and love, but it didn't do much to quell the knowledge that I've possibly fucked myself.
[ FAST-FORWARD TO THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE ]
My husband and I finally fell into chuckles on the walk inside as I tried to convince him that we should just go home, since I was dry as a bone. So we signed in and sat down, talked about this and that, and when they called my name and I stood up - gravity helped my body betray me. My husband knew as soon as he saw my shoulders slump and quickly took a moment to rub my back, pull me in close and kiss my head.
I won't bore you with the normal triage or wait and we will just skip on over to the exam.
The doctor asked many questions and I was painfully truthful. I told him I started wearing 24/7 about 2 years ago, but had never lost control - I could hold if I needed to, until recently when I started waking up wet now and then and also the recent points of uncontrolled urination during changes and possibly other times. By the end of my confessions I was in tears...again.
The doctor made some points about underlying issues that might be happening and was unsure whether my wearing actually caused my sudden uncontrolled wetting. However, he referred me to a urogynecologist stating that he would much rather have an expert in the field do the testing.
My appointment with the urogynecologist is on Monday. I will try to breathe and update as I can.
Thank you, for reading.