Nurse at my urologist office said my diaper was cute and wanted to know where I get them, was the highlight of my day. Next week I find out what the test finds, I am guessing expanded bladder, prostate is ok.
I think a part of my insomnia is my little alter ego trying to stay up past bedtime, there is always a part of me that resists bedtime. When I denied this part of me, I found it took its anger out on other parts of my life and sleep was the biggest one it could attack.
Woke up wet, not sure if I woke up and wet and went back to bed or not, I wasn't as surprised to find myself in a wet diaper. I may be getting use to it again, but it had been a week since I had woke up wet
I just had a syncope or seizure episode, I am safe and ok, but a little upset, I really hope it wasn't a seizure, I have epilepsy and its well controlled but that doesn't always last forever, I am hoping it was just a syncope or fainting episode. I live alone and this could end my independence.
The adult bottle I ordered a month ago, finally arrived, I love it, extra long nipple, kinda like an adult paci. Gonna be perfect at bedtime. or naps. I think I might start taking naps again, try to relive some memories from childhood
remember depression can be lethal, reach out and talk to someone, you can always call the suicide prevention number and talk to someone 800-273-8255. Always remember you are not alone, no matter how dark it seems, or how alone you feel.
Just got my first order in from Tykables, I went with the subscription deal, which is a little more than what I was paying for Crinklz. I still feel guilty for spending so much on diapers that I technically don't "need", but a part of me does need them emotionally. Opening a case of new diapers I haven't tried feels like Christmas.
I woke up wet again, still annoyed at the anger and accusations of being fake, its a genuine surprise to me when I wake up wet, I record my sleep and while I talk a lot I don't seem to wake up or anything, but even if I just wake up in my sleep pee my diaper and fall back asleep, and have no memory of it, wouldn't still be the same thing?
Why do I still get people in the forums that will be as crude and mean as possible by saying I am a liar, that my experiences are invalid? Its a minority, but its still really upsets me when someone tries to say stuff like "I'm not a real bedwetter" or that I am so stupid that its impossible to explain to me how wrong I am.
Finally made an appointment to see a urologist, I have been putting off seeing one since I was in college in the 90's and first experienced Prostatitis, I think I now have aged and have an enlarged prostate. I dont want to even cater to the idea that its cancer, so I dont, but I also realize I need to get checked out. I am dealing with minor overflow incontinence now.
I just subscribed to tykables, more money than I want to spend per month, but I should be happy for 3 months, then I can cancel for a while, I dont usually go through 80 diapers per month, but do go over 40 easily. I went with the thicker diapers, I liked the playdayz but I prefer thick diapers, even when they are not convenient or are to noticeable