Woke up dry yesterday, but wet this morning. Didn't have any wet mornings till I decided I had to go back in diapers again, so I think this is totally mental conditioning and will power, with possibly a twist of little me dreaming.
Woke up two days in a row now with a wet diaper, I am starting to think that when I sleep and get into a dream state that it is often "little Me" at the wheel. All it took was letting little me out of the hole I buried him in.
Ever realize a day or so too late that your old pants have hole in the rear end, that show your underwear? Yeah... I was wearing plastic pants which could at least be mistaken for very boyish underwear or boxers, and not a naked diaper. One person did give me an odd smile...
New profile pic, I have struggled to fine the perfect pic of me that wouldn't be to revealing of my adult identity. This was in 2008 on Halloween. I actually went that far as to wear a self customized adult diaper and Huggies t-shirt to a party. I even went to the grocery store dressed like that to buy wipes, powder and beer. Didn't get any negative comments but was followed around the store by a few people.
I've made it from moderated to Est. Contributor, I feel like a bog boy, but I ain't!
Aby, There's more to all of this than what meets the eye... I hope you'll see this as a positive learning experience and not resort to going down in flames... You've got to give yourself, and this life... a better chance... this is the only life to concern yourself with now. You can't actually say that you've done everything you could/can, when you haven't lived the entirety of this life... I don't think it's like missing a bus... to hell with this one, I'll catch the next... you've got to ride this one 'till the wheels fall off... I believe that I understand some of your anguish... and I believe that you have much more to see now... it's bigger than you alone... and you are not alone... even if lonely today!