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My entire world is crumbling around me and there's nothing I want to do more than be little but I'm terrified. I'm scared if I even admit that to anyone (IRL) they'll send me to a hospital. Part of me wonders if I should go to the hospital if I'm dealing with this much fear and anxiety coupled with my strong desires to regress.

I've been told I suffer from flashbacks. There's no part of me that wants to keep moving forward considering I've lost every outlet of love I possibly had. I just want to suck my thumb and color. I want to feel loved. I want to give someone a real hug and not let go. I want to be happy.
 
Hey there friend, we all feel that way some times.
Just calm down and regress to as much content you can reach.
If you're anxiety and panic increases maybe look into the internet before running off to the hospital.
Just try not to focus on it, get a snack, put on some toons, and take a nap.
Try to relax and don't worry.
This is a support site after all.
 
Hi Noah. I understand you, it's terrifying to want to be little all the time, and feeling that you're alone in the universe. We can't be babies all the time, we have adult lives we have to abide too. Now, you have to find someone, your best friend, your siblings, someone you can tell about this need to feel little and maybe they can help. If you feel fear and anxiety, you might want to check that out with a doctor. I know it's hard, but you have to keep moving forward. You're not alone, you have us. We can give you the love you need but you need to find more love on your own. If you want to suck your thumb and color, do it. There's nothing wrong with that. I'm sorry I'm not there to give you a real hug, but you have my support and if you wanna talk, just PM me. You can be happy, we're here for you...
 
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noahVmiller said:
My entire world is crumbling around me and there's nothing I want to do more than be little but I'm terrified. I'm scared if I even admit that to anyone (IRL) they'll send me to a hospital. Part of me wonders if I should go to the hospital if I'm dealing with this much fear and anxiety coupled with my strong desires to regress.

I've been told I suffer from flashbacks. There's no part of me that wants to keep moving forward considering I've lost every outlet of love I possibly had. I just want to suck my thumb and color. I want to feel loved. I want to give someone a real hug and not let go. I want to be happy.
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:hugs: Hey, I think we all have pretty much been there, we all want to feel loved and little again, and believe me I can relate to that massively, but know this, you are loved, and believe me some days I feel like that too, still know this you are loved, you have us, also I Will prey for you, if it helps. Also Kitty Shadow Clone Hugpile!!!! :hugpile:
 
As others have said - YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

Many of us have felt this way at one time or another. As others have said, you need to have boundaries. After all, you are an adult and need to conduct your life as an adult with Little/Sissy/AB or whatever tendencies, not as a full-time Little/Sissy/AB or whatever.

From this and some of your other threads, it sounds like this is getting out-of-control. In this case (and I realize it is VERY hard to do), I think you need to take the next step of talking to a therapist.

Whatever you do, we are here to support you.
 
Sorry I missed this thread earlier. I barely pay attention to the AB discusisons and rarely check the second page.

noahVmiller said:
My entire world is crumbling around me and there's nothing I want to do more than be little but I'm terrified. I'm scared if I even admit that to anyone (IRL) they'll send me to a hospital. Part of me wonders if I should go to the hospital if I'm dealing with this much fear and anxiety coupled with my strong desires to regress.
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You may only be sent to a hospital in the US if you are an immediate danger to yourself or others due to a mental health issue. Being Little helps you be calm and cannot be used to send you to a hospital.

Strong fear and anxiety may cause reasons to go to a hospital. Wondering about going to the hospital probably means things are not very healthy for you right now. Am I right? Is there someone in real life you may discuss this for a second opinion? Maybe they can ease your mind. Maybe even call a mental health helpline or visit a doctor (the normal family practice kind) for anxiety.

Trust me. It is harder than you think to be hospitalized against your will. The one time I went to an emergency room for anxiety, I asked to be admitted. Because I answered the screening quesions wrong, they could not legally admit me for psychiatric reasons. Two days later, a psychiatrist evaluated me and asked if I would consider voluntary commitment. Uh, yeah. I spent 12 days that time and 50 days the next, both my decision.

On the other hand, voluntarily seeking help gives more freedom in treatment decisions and allows one to help decide when treatment in the hospital is done. Involuntary treatment is completely by force and does not require any patient input in the treatment given. If involuntary is a concern, may want to consider going voluntarily before the other occurs. Just a thought.

Doing nothing will not help and will only make things worse. Can we help?
 
I did go to the hospital tonight - involuntary. It was absolutely terrifying. When the police officers brought me to my room (past the iron clad no return pysch ward door) there were restraints the size of bear traps chained to the bed. The whole experience made me relive so many parts from the first time I was hospitalized so it was a scary stuff to say the least. By the time I left the molicare I was wearing had leaked so much, I was just glad I had a backpack I could sling low enough to cover the barely visible patch as I walked a mile back to the restaurant where I work.
 
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I did go to the hospital tonight - involuntary. It was absolutely terrifying. When the police officers brought me to my room (past the iron clad no return pysch ward door) there were restraints the size of bear traps chained to the bed. The whole experience made me relive so many parts from the first time I was hospitalized so it was a scary stuff to say the least. By the time I left the molicare I was wearing had leaked so much, I was just glad I had a backpack I could sling low enough to cover the barely visible patch as I walked a mile back to the restaurant where I work.
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What happened to have you committed involuntarily, if you don't mind telling? Did it help being there? Did they have a psychologist for you to talk to? If they did I hope you took advantage of the moment and expressed your needs to feel little, there is nothing wrong with wanting to feel little, but it helps in self acceptance to be able to talk to people about that stuff in real life.
 
noahVmiller said:
I did go to the hospital tonight - involuntary. It was absolutely terrifying...
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A police escort does sound scary. Is there anything more you would like to share?

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What happened to have you committed involuntarily, if you don't mind telling? Did it help being there? Did they have a psychologist for you to talk to? If they did I hope you took advantage of the moment and expressed your needs to feel little, there is nothing wrong with wanting to feel little, but it helps in self acceptance to be able to talk to people about that stuff in real life.
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He was not involuntarily committed, just escorted there for evaluation. Committed would have meant changing clothes and a longer stay than one diaper would allow. Also, such a brief visit to the hospital would not have allowed much time to discuss anything other than why he was there. Besides, bringing up the Littles topic was probably the furthest thing from his mind at the time considering the hospital description.

We wish you the best, noah.
 
Trust me my diaper was overflowing, I was terrified and overwhelmed with so much anxiety - mostly flashbacks to when I was hospitalized previously. I really wanted to share my little desires but I had a gut feeling if I started to "sound crazy" by talking abiut regressing then I'd definitely not be allowed back out. I should also clarify it's not that I'm afraid of giving up control I just know being committed to the hospital against your will can be one of the worst things but you give up control and leave your fate up to psych doctors would could think you're absolutely nuts for wanting to suck your thumb, wear a diaper, and drink from a bottle.
 
Good (Very Early) Morning Noah,

I myself understand your thoughts and feelings.
At my age of 57, I still have childhood abuse PTSD flashbacks.
I have experienced overwhelming regression urges/desires.
But, I have to be in "Adult Mode" and only "regress" when I can schedule it.
Anyway, I am on both the Autism and Cerebral Palsy disability spectrums.

"caitianx"
 
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Trust me my diaper was overflowing, I was terrified and overwhelmed with so much anxiety - mostly flashbacks to when I was hospitalized previously. I really wanted to share my little desires but I had a gut feeling if I started to "sound crazy" by talking abiut regressing then I'd definitely not be allowed back out. I should also clarify it's not that I'm afraid of giving up control I just know being committed to the hospital against your will can be one of the worst things but you give up control and leave your fate up to psych doctors would could think you're absolutely nuts for wanting to suck your thumb, wear a diaper, and drink from a bottle.
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Oh buddy, I really want to just give you a hug right now! I hate hospitals myself. I really want to help but I'm just stuck for ideas. I don't think they would declare you 'nuts'. I guess it kind of depends on the level of extremity and what it means to you. judging by what you've said, it looks like you're pretty unstable with your emotional state right now.

I really would recommend even just talking to someone professional about your feelings. ab/dl desires can get out of control for all of us sometimes. It happens to the best of us. I'd recommend talking to someone on this site who's seen a therapist or someone and discussed ab/dl stuff with them. I can't remember any of the top of my mind at the moment but you can look.

Seriously though, I almost feel like crying just picturing your state and how scared you must've been. Regression is starting to become a bit better understood in society and some professionals may have even heard of it.
 
Good Evening!

2 days ago, I myself had a visit with my own mental healthcare provider, and she knows about and understands about my being an Adult Baby. I have opened up and asked about how to maintain a balance to keep from being engulfed by my regression feelings.

Maintaining a sense of emotional balance is hard, especially for an autistic person like me, but I manage as best I can.
 
If things get that bad again, try some of this advice. I've had something happen like this once before, but that's a different story.
If you're having a "hard time" and you see the police, tell yourself to try and explain it to them. Tell them it's just anxiety and panic, not to restrain you, or man handle you, this of course is if you can calm down enough to tell them. Most cops aren't just going to come in and grab you. Ask them to give you a little space and just help get you somewhere quiet. If you stress out when they get there, just try to breathe and relax. Sit down if you have to; it can actually give you some speaking room.
 
Hey noah, once a one day you regress to little. And you feel no trouble the world.
I just wanna encourage you for not give up for your life.
If you have a thing which you do it, (think Little things) and loves it, then... do it!
 
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