I’m not proud of this, but I had never blacked out before. I was recently out of college, living in a new state and hanging out by myself at a small town bar.
I love karaoke, and I stayed a very long time. I was taking shots and socializing. I was also diapered. It got to a point where I started to come in and out of awareness.
I went from sitting at the bar, to being in a bathroom, to suddenly standing out in front of the bar with someone who was getting me a cab… didn’t know what went on in between.
The bathroom was small and very busy. One stall, and one urinal. Lots of people in and out. That’s a good point to remember when I say the next part.
I arrived in my neighborhood, but for some reason had the cab driver drop me off somewhere that wasn’t my street. I was too confused to try to walk home so I just fell asleep in the grass for a bit. When I came to I walked home.
When I woke in the morning, I went to Change my diaper… but I wasn’t wearing one.
And between the small busy bathroom, the cab and the side of the road, I have no idea what I did with it. I have a flash of an image in my mind of my casting it on the floor in the small busy restroom, but I don’t know if it was a dream. I hope to God it was.
I did not return to that bar for a LONG time!