pugglesmuggles
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Hello- I just wanted to know if anyone else has gone through this little psychological development. My b/s: I'm male/31, mostly UIC, and wear diapers 24/7 to manage it, and I've been this way for about 3 years since starting to lose bladder control over that time. I also went through several steps of protection, from finally admitting I needed to wear something (started with Depend underwear), to realizing that wasn't enough (tried a few brands and settled on Abena M-4's), to now with Abena's new Slip rebrand, I've settled on Northshore's MegaMax diapers.
Anyway, for the longest time, even though I was protected, I was terrified of leaks (I still am nervous about them) and just didn't really "trust" that my diaper would hold it, especially when sitting. In the office, if I pee while seated, I get that terror-sweat thing going and am afraid some will have leaked out. It's gotten a lot better- actually, since I started wearing the MegaMax diapers, I've got a lot of my old confidence back. But the nervous feeling is still there- I wonder if it ever actually goes away?
Earlier on in my UIC journey I would change my diaper after every wetting, anxious about leaks. When I started wearing the Abena M-4's, I convinced myself to push changes back to after 2 wettings, just to not have to change so often (it takes time!! Plus, I was carrying a lot of diapers with me which took up space).
Now, with the plastic-backed MegaMax diapers, on a typical day I travel outside the house with only 2 spare diapers and supplies in my backpack. But it took me a long time to get to that point, and I'm still nervous about leaks. I have told myself that at basically $4.50 a pop, I need to wait for 3 wettings before changing my diapers now. When I do they don't feel like they're at capacity at all, but I just can't bring myself to push it any further.
What are your thoughts on trusting your diapers?
Anyway, for the longest time, even though I was protected, I was terrified of leaks (I still am nervous about them) and just didn't really "trust" that my diaper would hold it, especially when sitting. In the office, if I pee while seated, I get that terror-sweat thing going and am afraid some will have leaked out. It's gotten a lot better- actually, since I started wearing the MegaMax diapers, I've got a lot of my old confidence back. But the nervous feeling is still there- I wonder if it ever actually goes away?
Earlier on in my UIC journey I would change my diaper after every wetting, anxious about leaks. When I started wearing the Abena M-4's, I convinced myself to push changes back to after 2 wettings, just to not have to change so often (it takes time!! Plus, I was carrying a lot of diapers with me which took up space).
Now, with the plastic-backed MegaMax diapers, on a typical day I travel outside the house with only 2 spare diapers and supplies in my backpack. But it took me a long time to get to that point, and I'm still nervous about leaks. I have told myself that at basically $4.50 a pop, I need to wait for 3 wettings before changing my diapers now. When I do they don't feel like they're at capacity at all, but I just can't bring myself to push it any further.
What are your thoughts on trusting your diapers?