Hi siysiy glad that you have found some time to share your story. Rest assured you are not just talking to yourself, I am listening (so to speak) and enjoy reading your ‘nonsense’ as you put it.
Sorry to hear that you lost your Dad when you were only 11 years old, that would have been hard on your Mum as well. I am fortunate to have had both parents when going up. Dad died when I was in my late 30s and Mum passed away only a couple of years ago, (I am now in my mid 60s).
Many, many years ago, when I was on my diaper ‘L’ plates and I tried using for the first time and found that my mind had been so well potty trained, that I could only wet or mess (with difficulty) by either standing in front of, or sitting on, the toilet. (This was long before my IBS and life stresses contributed to my slowly worsening bowel incontinence).
Now days nappy use is anywhere anytime, but (with the little control I still do have), I try my best NOT to have a BM in confined public spaces.
I also discovered that I got better sleep sucking on a dummy, but it took quiet a while before I woke up in the morning with it still in my mouth.
(I never sleep without the three Teddy Bears that my wife gave me, as they are always on the bed).
Then came the day a few years ago, (as I was found daily scrubbing my underwear clean as hand washing), when my wife said to me:
“I think you should give it up and wear nappies all the time now.” My wife was right of course (they always are) and I have not worn anything else since. As I complied to her suggestion, she then followed that up with these words, “Welcome to my world.” My beautiful girl developed serve continence ages before we were married. She ended up on the incontinence allowance and I went on leave from work to take full time care of her at home. - Please do take care with the tube of your chastity device, (my wife suffered a lot from UTIs from just wearing pull ups). -
But now it is just me, my wife passed away in August last year and I rejoined ADISC many weeks later for some online company.
[I had first joined ADISC in October 2009 and became inactive in March 2011 when we were engaged]. I miss her very much.
By the way, she used to keep part of our front veranda as her small plants in pots, garden area. As a youth I used to love camping in the bush, ‘sleeping under the stars’ the country night sky being so much better for star glazing (far less light pollution).
Coping with depression and anxiety affects the mental health of so many of us in this model world, glad you received helpful therapy.
My AB times are the best for de-stressing, excellent that you had the ‘Little Big Land’ to attend [I would never dare] and great that you found your Big for your Little self.
I also suffer from dyslexia and my highest academic qualification was a Diploma in IT, but that was last century, (now just retired).
As an asexual, may I ask you a finishing question? If it is: “No sex please, we are British” then where do all the (born) English people, come from?
Hope I have not taken up too much responding space on your blog. Take care.
