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Some of you may remember me from a few weeks ago. I kinda had a mini meltdown after wearing AB diapers for the first time. I thought I would post an update and my first diaper review!
First I'd like to say thank you for the supportive posts I received that night. I sent a link to two very good friends of mine and they arranged a therapist appointment before they came to my house. They saw I was in pain and acted accordingly. I don’t know how I will ever repay them for their compassion.
Currently I’m three sessions into EMDR trauma therapy. This is the first therapy I’ve ever had! Very interesting process and I’m committed to finishing no matter the outcome. I had no idea how emotional and cathartic it could be! Having to tell someone and then having read back verbatim the trauma you experienced is something you really can’t put into words! I was thinking of posting a more detailed description of my therapy in the mature/off-topic forum. Maybe someone will find it relatable or supportive in their own efforts. Anyway…. DIAPERS!!!
This is all still very new to me! Therapy aside I firmly believe I will be a DL for life going forward! Since my meltdown I’ve been wearing one to bed each night. There is a part of me that missed wearing them even though it's literally been 35yrs since I’ve had to wear one. Adapting to the DL lifestyle at 41 is very strange indeed. It's like wearing a watch for the first time when you’ve never worn one before. They are still a little distracting in bed. And they definitely make me feel hotter than I’m used to. I kinda wish I discovered/accepted this much earlier in my life! I think I would have had great fun with it!
So I dove in head first! Man…. the internet is awesome! You don’t even have to leave the house!! LOL
Here's what I've got so far in order of purchase. For reference I’m 5’6”, 210lbs, 42” waist.
Diapers:
Littleforbig - Little Fantasy(L)
Rearz - Barnyard(L)
InControl - Elite Hybrid(L)
Rearz - Rebel(L)
Rearz - Safari(L)
ABUniverse ABU Simple Ultra Diapers(L)
ABUniverse ABU Simple Ultra Diapers(XL) --Not tried yet--
ABUniverse PeekABU(L) --Not tried yet--
ABUniverse Preschool Plastic(L) --Not tried yet--
ABUniverse LittlePawz(L) --Not tried yet--
ABUniverse Space Large(L) --Not tried yet--
Cloth:
Rearz - Snap Crotch Bodysuit - White(XL)
Rearz - Omutsu Bulky Fitted Nighttime Cloth Diaper (Blue - Airplanes) (Medium/Large)
Rearz - Omutsu Bulky Fitted Nighttime Cloth Diaper (White) (Large/X-Large)
Powders:
Caldesene Baby Powder
Caldesene Medicated Protecting Powder
DUDE Body Powder, Fragrance Free
Creams:
Desitin Maximum Strength Baby Diaper Rash Cream
3M Cavilon Durable Barrier Cream
Gold Bond Ultimate Healing Skin Therapy Lotion
As you can see this is a shotgun approach to the problem of not knowing what you want. LOL
Littleforbig - Little Fantasy:
Was the first I tried. Right now I’m not into AB or ageplay and I really don’t mind or care for the printed diapers. My impression is they are the most plasticy feeling diapers I’ve tried. Not necessarily in a bad way either. One thing I’ve found is that I have an affinity for the feel of the exterior of the diaper! Especially around the curves on my backside. Like laying face down and just feeling around my backside and hips. What a strange new sensation but I love the hell out of it! But also for the front!! I’ll explain more later. It only took a few days but now I’m very comfortable peeing in them while in bed. When wet these feel kinda hard in the wet region compared to the others. And yes I did learn quickly that fluffing is a must! They were rock hard the first few nights! LOL
Rearz - Barnyard:
Now these were very different. Sooooo soft on the inside!! Their exterior was different also. Less plastic feel for sure. And of course these are hook and loop. To be honest I’m not a fan. Yes it did hold through the night but my confidence wasn’t 100%. Right now I prefer a tighter fit on my body that the tapes give. Also with hook and loop it’s a cloth landing up front. I think I much prefer the full plastic landing. While in bed I love to run my fingers on it. Something about that plastic!! When wet it felt a little more pliable between my legs and not so hard.
InControl - Elite Hybrid:
Softer still!! These things are very comfortable to wear in bed. It’s hook and loop but it did stay on me all night so props for that.
Rearz - Rebel:
Totally different exterior feel! Very satisfying while laying face down and love the four tapes! These have a different core(no blue stripe). When wet they are very pliable! Kinda soft and squishy but still dry after one use. Not sure I got a bad run but these have little tough chunks in the plastic backing. I can feel them when I’m in bed and they flake off if I scratch them. Still comfortable but feels like a cheaper product.
Rearz - Safari:
I’ve only tried one so far. Very comfy to wear like the Barnyard. Love the four tapes!! When wet it feels a little harder than the Rebels but still soft enough to not be an issue. I will try another one soon. I am fluffing but maybe not hard enough?
ABUniverse ABU Simple Ultra Diapers:
First off the sizing on these diapers seems to be on the small side for me. All the Rearz products felt huge in comparison. So I ordered some XL’s to see if they fit me better. I like the full coverage feel on the Rearz large sizes!
Oh ya the exterior!!! Wow the plastic feel is very different and very soft! I think I prefer these for their plastic feel alone. The interior is ok. Definitely not as soft as Barnyard or InControl - Elite Hybrid, but soft enough. When wet they seem pliable and soft.
If the XL’s fit better I think these will be my default but the Safari was a close second.
Cloths:
I don’t think I’m a fan of the cloth diapers. These seem awkward and ill fitting for my body. And OMG they take forever to dry in the dryer!! Not sure I’ll try them again but who knows.
Now the Rearz - Snap Crotch Bodysuit on the other hand is awesome. I never wore pj’s but this thing is awesome. I love the way it holds the diaper in place while in bed. I can move all around and things stay nice and cozy. Definitely getting more of these.
I did buy some samples of the other ABUniverse products but haven’t tried them yet.
Powders:
Learned pretty quick that powder is a must! Both Caldesene types I have are good but I’m not sure I like the smell so I got Dude brand unscented. This may or may not sound weird but the diaper smell itself is something I didn’t think would matter. Kind of a faint antiseptic smell. So far the Littleforbig have the most distinctive smell to me and I wish the others smelled the same. Oh well…
Creams:
I was using Gold Bond around the groin area but stopped because the powder seems to do the trick and keep things dry. I did have to use some barrier cream on a small chafed spot. Both Desitin and the 3M stuff seems to work well. Desitin is very thick paste. The 3M is a cream and has a pleasant smell like coconut.
So in short I very much like plastic backed diapers with tapes! I love the feel of the plastic in a BIG WAY and I’m not a big fan of the baby powder smell or printed diapers. The Rearz - Snap Crotch Bodysuit does conceal the diaper so I can’t feel it as much, but It makes up for it by keeping things in place while I sleep. Getting a good fit is something I’m still learning. Like attaching the bottom tapes first and bringing the top tapes downward at an angle to achieve the tighter fit I want around the waist area. With this new bulkiness while sleeping it was necessary for me to get a leg/knee pillow. Never had one before but I think this was the right choice. Definitely more comfortable side sleeping with it.
Like I said it’s like wearing a watch when you’ve never worn one before. Sleeping is getting easier and the other night was the best yet! Just as I woke I did a little wiggle. The diaper had a whole night to conform to my shape and was firmly affixed to my posterior. Felt so good I just kept wiggling with a smile on my face!
I believe this has aided in my therapy even though it’s early days. I don’t intend to wear them in public. Right now I just look forward to coming home after work or a therapy session and getting into a diaper. I even started meditating which was recommended to me. Of course i’m doing that in a diaper and it’s great. So relaxing especially if I get a good fit. I’m looking forward to posting and reading in the future. Although I don’t know anyone here I’ve seen nothing but caring and compassion form the replies to my earlier post.
Thank you all and hope things are going well in your lives!
One point for knowing my avatar pic.
First I'd like to say thank you for the supportive posts I received that night. I sent a link to two very good friends of mine and they arranged a therapist appointment before they came to my house. They saw I was in pain and acted accordingly. I don’t know how I will ever repay them for their compassion.
Currently I’m three sessions into EMDR trauma therapy. This is the first therapy I’ve ever had! Very interesting process and I’m committed to finishing no matter the outcome. I had no idea how emotional and cathartic it could be! Having to tell someone and then having read back verbatim the trauma you experienced is something you really can’t put into words! I was thinking of posting a more detailed description of my therapy in the mature/off-topic forum. Maybe someone will find it relatable or supportive in their own efforts. Anyway…. DIAPERS!!!
This is all still very new to me! Therapy aside I firmly believe I will be a DL for life going forward! Since my meltdown I’ve been wearing one to bed each night. There is a part of me that missed wearing them even though it's literally been 35yrs since I’ve had to wear one. Adapting to the DL lifestyle at 41 is very strange indeed. It's like wearing a watch for the first time when you’ve never worn one before. They are still a little distracting in bed. And they definitely make me feel hotter than I’m used to. I kinda wish I discovered/accepted this much earlier in my life! I think I would have had great fun with it!
So I dove in head first! Man…. the internet is awesome! You don’t even have to leave the house!! LOL
Here's what I've got so far in order of purchase. For reference I’m 5’6”, 210lbs, 42” waist.
Diapers:
Littleforbig - Little Fantasy(L)
Rearz - Barnyard(L)
InControl - Elite Hybrid(L)
Rearz - Rebel(L)
Rearz - Safari(L)
ABUniverse ABU Simple Ultra Diapers(L)
ABUniverse ABU Simple Ultra Diapers(XL) --Not tried yet--
ABUniverse PeekABU(L) --Not tried yet--
ABUniverse Preschool Plastic(L) --Not tried yet--
ABUniverse LittlePawz(L) --Not tried yet--
ABUniverse Space Large(L) --Not tried yet--
Cloth:
Rearz - Snap Crotch Bodysuit - White(XL)
Rearz - Omutsu Bulky Fitted Nighttime Cloth Diaper (Blue - Airplanes) (Medium/Large)
Rearz - Omutsu Bulky Fitted Nighttime Cloth Diaper (White) (Large/X-Large)
Powders:
Caldesene Baby Powder
Caldesene Medicated Protecting Powder
DUDE Body Powder, Fragrance Free
Creams:
Desitin Maximum Strength Baby Diaper Rash Cream
3M Cavilon Durable Barrier Cream
Gold Bond Ultimate Healing Skin Therapy Lotion
As you can see this is a shotgun approach to the problem of not knowing what you want. LOL
Littleforbig - Little Fantasy:
Was the first I tried. Right now I’m not into AB or ageplay and I really don’t mind or care for the printed diapers. My impression is they are the most plasticy feeling diapers I’ve tried. Not necessarily in a bad way either. One thing I’ve found is that I have an affinity for the feel of the exterior of the diaper! Especially around the curves on my backside. Like laying face down and just feeling around my backside and hips. What a strange new sensation but I love the hell out of it! But also for the front!! I’ll explain more later. It only took a few days but now I’m very comfortable peeing in them while in bed. When wet these feel kinda hard in the wet region compared to the others. And yes I did learn quickly that fluffing is a must! They were rock hard the first few nights! LOL
Rearz - Barnyard:
Now these were very different. Sooooo soft on the inside!! Their exterior was different also. Less plastic feel for sure. And of course these are hook and loop. To be honest I’m not a fan. Yes it did hold through the night but my confidence wasn’t 100%. Right now I prefer a tighter fit on my body that the tapes give. Also with hook and loop it’s a cloth landing up front. I think I much prefer the full plastic landing. While in bed I love to run my fingers on it. Something about that plastic!! When wet it felt a little more pliable between my legs and not so hard.
InControl - Elite Hybrid:
Softer still!! These things are very comfortable to wear in bed. It’s hook and loop but it did stay on me all night so props for that.
Rearz - Rebel:
Totally different exterior feel! Very satisfying while laying face down and love the four tapes! These have a different core(no blue stripe). When wet they are very pliable! Kinda soft and squishy but still dry after one use. Not sure I got a bad run but these have little tough chunks in the plastic backing. I can feel them when I’m in bed and they flake off if I scratch them. Still comfortable but feels like a cheaper product.
Rearz - Safari:
I’ve only tried one so far. Very comfy to wear like the Barnyard. Love the four tapes!! When wet it feels a little harder than the Rebels but still soft enough to not be an issue. I will try another one soon. I am fluffing but maybe not hard enough?
ABUniverse ABU Simple Ultra Diapers:
First off the sizing on these diapers seems to be on the small side for me. All the Rearz products felt huge in comparison. So I ordered some XL’s to see if they fit me better. I like the full coverage feel on the Rearz large sizes!
Oh ya the exterior!!! Wow the plastic feel is very different and very soft! I think I prefer these for their plastic feel alone. The interior is ok. Definitely not as soft as Barnyard or InControl - Elite Hybrid, but soft enough. When wet they seem pliable and soft.
If the XL’s fit better I think these will be my default but the Safari was a close second.
Cloths:
I don’t think I’m a fan of the cloth diapers. These seem awkward and ill fitting for my body. And OMG they take forever to dry in the dryer!! Not sure I’ll try them again but who knows.
Now the Rearz - Snap Crotch Bodysuit on the other hand is awesome. I never wore pj’s but this thing is awesome. I love the way it holds the diaper in place while in bed. I can move all around and things stay nice and cozy. Definitely getting more of these.
I did buy some samples of the other ABUniverse products but haven’t tried them yet.
Powders:
Learned pretty quick that powder is a must! Both Caldesene types I have are good but I’m not sure I like the smell so I got Dude brand unscented. This may or may not sound weird but the diaper smell itself is something I didn’t think would matter. Kind of a faint antiseptic smell. So far the Littleforbig have the most distinctive smell to me and I wish the others smelled the same. Oh well…
Creams:
I was using Gold Bond around the groin area but stopped because the powder seems to do the trick and keep things dry. I did have to use some barrier cream on a small chafed spot. Both Desitin and the 3M stuff seems to work well. Desitin is very thick paste. The 3M is a cream and has a pleasant smell like coconut.
So in short I very much like plastic backed diapers with tapes! I love the feel of the plastic in a BIG WAY and I’m not a big fan of the baby powder smell or printed diapers. The Rearz - Snap Crotch Bodysuit does conceal the diaper so I can’t feel it as much, but It makes up for it by keeping things in place while I sleep. Getting a good fit is something I’m still learning. Like attaching the bottom tapes first and bringing the top tapes downward at an angle to achieve the tighter fit I want around the waist area. With this new bulkiness while sleeping it was necessary for me to get a leg/knee pillow. Never had one before but I think this was the right choice. Definitely more comfortable side sleeping with it.
Like I said it’s like wearing a watch when you’ve never worn one before. Sleeping is getting easier and the other night was the best yet! Just as I woke I did a little wiggle. The diaper had a whole night to conform to my shape and was firmly affixed to my posterior. Felt so good I just kept wiggling with a smile on my face!
I believe this has aided in my therapy even though it’s early days. I don’t intend to wear them in public. Right now I just look forward to coming home after work or a therapy session and getting into a diaper. I even started meditating which was recommended to me. Of course i’m doing that in a diaper and it’s great. So relaxing especially if I get a good fit. I’m looking forward to posting and reading in the future. Although I don’t know anyone here I’ve seen nothing but caring and compassion form the replies to my earlier post.
Thank you all and hope things are going well in your lives!
One point for knowing my avatar pic.
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