I would rather give it up.
Diapers are a good, healthy and legal way of destressing and regressing. But it needs to be controlled and with a limit. Otherwise it is not enjoyable.
For me it's gotta have 2-3 wettings to really feel the bulkiness.
When it's too full I already get the anxiety of not leaking, so it's not that enjoyable.
I'm 31.
Been stealing diapers as a teen from my cousin's house where I stayed for a year.
I first bought a pack of adult diapers at age 20.
Although I have tried many times to disconnect myself from the fetish, I was always unsuccessful. Usually a stressful episode will get me to order more.
#2 for me. She knows I wear and sometimes even changes me, but I try to keep her out of it for the most part. I am afraid that I might overdue it and lose it all.