I was definitely treated like a child. I would like to tell my story in detail because there were many aspects of my life in which I was treated like a child during my childhood and teenage years.
The reasons why I was treated this way were my short height, which meant I was always considered younger, and my mother who believed that as long as I lived at home I had to be polite, obedient, spend my free time studying and listen to her, and therefore any objection or discussion was out of the question. My mother was very strict and said that only her opinion mattered and I had no right to vote. She always emphasized that I was still a child when I lived with her. because of this, I rarely rebelled and argued, and when I did, I quickly regretted it, kneeling with my red bottom in the corner, so I politely and obediently did what she asked. And the spanking was very painful and the belt hanging on the wall in the room quickly put the discussions and antics out of my mind. I very rarely left the house without her because she felt she had to keep an eye on me, nor was I left alone at home, I went out with her or she left me in the care of friends. I can count the number of times I've gone out alone on the fingers of one hand, I always had to ask her for permission even when I was an older teenager, and I was usually told no.
Such treatment also meant that I had the same limitations as small children. My mother always believed that I should focus on the things that were most important to me, and according to her, the most important thing for me was studying and other things that could distract me were limited or forbidden. She always controlled my time in front of the computer and TV, but I always had to sit down to study after returning from school and having dinner, I always did my homework in her presence, so when I finished studying, I could spend it on the computer or TV if I wasn't penalized for them. It often happened that studying took up all my time after school and after that I had to go to sleep. And because of my mother's requirement, I had to go to bed at 7 p.m., so there wasn't much time left for my pleasures. I was also forbidden to meet girls outside of school, because she claimed that as long as I was going to school, I didn't need it and I had time for it. Even at home, when we were watching TV and there were scenes of kissing and closeness, my mother told me to turn my head away or leave the room, saying that the movie was not for me. I didn't have a door in the room, so I had no privacy, and when using the bathroom I had to leave it open, especially after trying to masturbate for which I was severely punished and embarrassed, which made me unlearn such behavior.
My clothes were also dictated by my mother, I didn't have many normal or serious things, my height allowed my mother to buy quite children's things for me. I had no freedom in choosing what to wear for a given day, my mother always chose the outfit she prepared for me, putting it on a chair in the evening. I received many things from the mothers of friends who had younger children and which were beyond me. Mom was always willing to give such gifts, no matter whether they were boy's or girl's things. Yes, she didn't take dresses for me, but 90% of the tights and pajamas were in girlish patterns and colors. My mother thought that I only wore pajamas to sleep and that I wore tights under my pants and at home, so the fact that they were girly shouldn't bother me at all. I had a lot of them, so my basic outfit at home almost until I came of age were girls' tights and a sweater or a T-shirt that had to be put on tights because I was not allowed to have a bare back. In general, I didn't mind wearing only tights at home, I liked wearing tights because they were comfortable, but the very fact that I was forced to wear girls' tights made me very embarrassed, especially when my mother had guests, but after a while it stopped bothering me because I wanted comfort . My mother claimed that when I wear tights and other children's things, I am more polite, obedient and it teaches me discipline and the more I don't bother her when she has guests because then I sit politely in my room and read books which has a positive effect on me. However, wearing children's things outside or to my mother's friends made me very embarrassing, because seeing a teenage boy in a children's sweater or in short shorts to mid-thigh with braces or in denim overalls, everyone treated me as a small boy.
Due to my short height, I was also treated like a child at school, which made me tormented and resulted in bed-wetting until the middle of 16. So I was forced to wear diapers every night until I was 17 and my short height and petite build allowed me to wear baby diapers with baby motifs and I had no say in the matter. My mom wouldn't let me diaper myself or take them off myself, so she nursed me the whole time I was wearing diapers at night.Just in case, she also diapered me during the day, for long car trips, shopping, trips when access to toilets was difficult or going out to friends, but rarely as a punishment. Even then I couldn't diaper myself, I had my backpack in which I had all the things just in case that sometimes came in handy. In my room, all the diaper supplies were in the drawer of the bed, which was for a child because I didn't grow out of it for a long time and my mother claimed that I don't need a bigger one when it's still good. A plastic sheet was also present in it so as not to damage the mattress.
However, when I no longer needed diapers and they disappeared from my teenage life, my mother's treatment of me as a child was loosened up along with other aspects that affected it as well. However, the priority of learning, deciding what to wear indoors and outdoors, not seeing girls, what time to sleep, and deciding what to watch on TV, and the lack of privacy in the room and bathroom stayed until I moved out when I was 19. Then my mother met someone and focused on the relationship and I on my life. However, I don't feel sorry for her how she treated me, even though she was strict, she was kind to me, supported me all the time and helped me in everything.
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