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Hi! I would describe this text mostly ABDL and traumatic events that have made me kind of like this. Including me thinking about my possible agere side. I know they’re complete opposites, but I put this under ABDL because many agere people have so severe trauma I don’t want to bother them.
So if you have any triggers at the moment, I suggest you don’t read this.
I was first interested in diapers as age of three and had certain feeling with them. I remember this feeling every time we went through diaper shelves. It never went away. I was always interested in diapers and wanted to use them.
After sometime I had giggle incontinence and got incontinence pads from my mom. I started wetting them with water and sometimes peed on them. I remember I started acting babyish when I felt them like crawling and stuff.
I got caught by my mom who seemed insanely disappointed, like I would’ve stole from the poor. I tried to deny any fetish even from myself.
Well the incontinence got worse when I was 13 and I got adult pull-ups. It was best time from a long time and I wanted to test those. I didn’t mean to go nro.2 but did and got caught by my mom, who was disappointed.
After that I couldn’t deny my fetish, but the feeling was same as primary school or even 3-years old.
Now I jump to agere part. Although I’ve had sexual feelings with baby things since 3-years old, I never wanted to do any sexual in that littlespace. Also I’ve seen non-sexual dreams where I’m a kid and I find them lovely.
I also would want to live in that baby space without any sex and be treated like little kid without any sexual acts or that kind of stuff. Also if I had a choice to be that 3-year old little space that I’ve been without puberty and becoming sexually mature, I would. So if I can’t see this purely as a fetish.
Now I come to my greatest problem. The sexual part. I would want to be in purely agere circles, but I have that sexual side which feels like a curse.
I can’t be ”purely” with agere people in meetings (that’s why I don’t go to those) but can’t find a sexual partner either. Kind of like world saying ”fu” to me. Like mind that shouldn’t exist but exists.
I’ve wished I never had puberty and I’m jealous anyone who are able to regress voluntarily in agere. I know these people often have had horrible life, harder than me, but I can’t force my mind to be reasonable. It would be like saying you shouldn’t think depression and it goes away.
I understand women don’t most likely want a big baby living with them instead of masculine man and I totally get it without any complaining. It’s the norm and I see nothing wrong from it. But I can’t do another sims character instead of me who doesn’t have this side. So it’s catch 22.
I also wonder why this is such a taboo. I know I’m turning 27 soon and can’t just expect others pay for my living without me doing anything. I’m always ready for household chores I do my best to find I job (tried to get from at least 5 places within few months) and I can also defend my partner. I’m also pretty intelligent, so I don’t understand why all of this is worth nothing because this one ABDL/possible agedre or agere side?
Although this text might sound very depressing, I’m not. I’m looking brightly to future and I’m happy in my life most of time. So nothing to worry and I wait for the future.
Thank you for reading!
So if you have any triggers at the moment, I suggest you don’t read this.
I was first interested in diapers as age of three and had certain feeling with them. I remember this feeling every time we went through diaper shelves. It never went away. I was always interested in diapers and wanted to use them.
After sometime I had giggle incontinence and got incontinence pads from my mom. I started wetting them with water and sometimes peed on them. I remember I started acting babyish when I felt them like crawling and stuff.
I got caught by my mom who seemed insanely disappointed, like I would’ve stole from the poor. I tried to deny any fetish even from myself.
Well the incontinence got worse when I was 13 and I got adult pull-ups. It was best time from a long time and I wanted to test those. I didn’t mean to go nro.2 but did and got caught by my mom, who was disappointed.
After that I couldn’t deny my fetish, but the feeling was same as primary school or even 3-years old.
Now I jump to agere part. Although I’ve had sexual feelings with baby things since 3-years old, I never wanted to do any sexual in that littlespace. Also I’ve seen non-sexual dreams where I’m a kid and I find them lovely.
I also would want to live in that baby space without any sex and be treated like little kid without any sexual acts or that kind of stuff. Also if I had a choice to be that 3-year old little space that I’ve been without puberty and becoming sexually mature, I would. So if I can’t see this purely as a fetish.
Now I come to my greatest problem. The sexual part. I would want to be in purely agere circles, but I have that sexual side which feels like a curse.
I can’t be ”purely” with agere people in meetings (that’s why I don’t go to those) but can’t find a sexual partner either. Kind of like world saying ”fu” to me. Like mind that shouldn’t exist but exists.
I’ve wished I never had puberty and I’m jealous anyone who are able to regress voluntarily in agere. I know these people often have had horrible life, harder than me, but I can’t force my mind to be reasonable. It would be like saying you shouldn’t think depression and it goes away.
I understand women don’t most likely want a big baby living with them instead of masculine man and I totally get it without any complaining. It’s the norm and I see nothing wrong from it. But I can’t do another sims character instead of me who doesn’t have this side. So it’s catch 22.
I also wonder why this is such a taboo. I know I’m turning 27 soon and can’t just expect others pay for my living without me doing anything. I’m always ready for household chores I do my best to find I job (tried to get from at least 5 places within few months) and I can also defend my partner. I’m also pretty intelligent, so I don’t understand why all of this is worth nothing because this one ABDL/possible agedre or agere side?
Although this text might sound very depressing, I’m not. I’m looking brightly to future and I’m happy in my life most of time. So nothing to worry and I wait for the future.
Thank you for reading!