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Yup, you heard it right.
While Teddy has posted many things about the binge and purge cycle that is so often associated with things of being ABDL and how for a long time now I have come to realize that purging is not something that does much good. --as inevitably these interests simply come back as they are deep rooted within the very person that I am.
I have proven many times that if I really really try, I can hide from my ABDL part of myself. But the fact is, that it is just that... I am hiding. The feelings don't go away and they are actually something that I find strength in now, rather than hating myself over it.
A few days ago, for a number of reasons and certain things in my life causing me much distress, I threw away probably over $1,000 worth of various clothing items that has been associated with the little girl of me. If you have seen my previous posts, this part of me is not something that fully defines who I am. My little sissy side is rather a small part (but yet still a very real part) of the sum of the parts of being me.
I am otherwise a very masculine, rough and tumble kind of cowboy that works in the hot sun, riding horses in places that might make the man from snowy river think twice about. I love trucks, tools, and rough stuff that is normally considered "manly" and such. But there is also the side that sometimes likes wearing a pretty satin dress over my diaper and feeling this other such seemingly completely opposite side of who I am.
While I did not get rid of all of the things that are part of this part of me, I did purge many things. Perhaps foolishly, these are now in the landfill. But events and situations that hurt me much more than getting bucked off a horse or being kicked by a rogue cow led to this happening. It is not that I do not recognize or admit this part of myself as real as any other. But rather, the pain and emotions (yes cowboys too have emotions) going on from other things led me to purging a few things that are a tangible recognition of this part of me.
How any of you have experienced similar things?
While perhaps you still understand who you are and you aren't trying to completely disassociate yourself with this part of you, have you (for whatever reason) purged things in a similar way?
While Teddy has posted many things about the binge and purge cycle that is so often associated with things of being ABDL and how for a long time now I have come to realize that purging is not something that does much good. --as inevitably these interests simply come back as they are deep rooted within the very person that I am.
I have proven many times that if I really really try, I can hide from my ABDL part of myself. But the fact is, that it is just that... I am hiding. The feelings don't go away and they are actually something that I find strength in now, rather than hating myself over it.
A few days ago, for a number of reasons and certain things in my life causing me much distress, I threw away probably over $1,000 worth of various clothing items that has been associated with the little girl of me. If you have seen my previous posts, this part of me is not something that fully defines who I am. My little sissy side is rather a small part (but yet still a very real part) of the sum of the parts of being me.
I am otherwise a very masculine, rough and tumble kind of cowboy that works in the hot sun, riding horses in places that might make the man from snowy river think twice about. I love trucks, tools, and rough stuff that is normally considered "manly" and such. But there is also the side that sometimes likes wearing a pretty satin dress over my diaper and feeling this other such seemingly completely opposite side of who I am.
While I did not get rid of all of the things that are part of this part of me, I did purge many things. Perhaps foolishly, these are now in the landfill. But events and situations that hurt me much more than getting bucked off a horse or being kicked by a rogue cow led to this happening. It is not that I do not recognize or admit this part of myself as real as any other. But rather, the pain and emotions (yes cowboys too have emotions) going on from other things led me to purging a few things that are a tangible recognition of this part of me.
How any of you have experienced similar things?
While perhaps you still understand who you are and you aren't trying to completely disassociate yourself with this part of you, have you (for whatever reason) purged things in a similar way?
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