Seabear said:
I love pooing my nappy too, I just wish changing it was as enjoyable!
I don't think changing a messy diaper would ever be enjoyable; I mean, some may enjoy that if its their kink. However, after 20+ years of doing unthinkable cleanings in underwear with no liners or anything, I think I can handle anything. I'm de-sensitized to it and don't mind it at all. The benefits of the messing outweigh anything involving the changing/cleanup. In fact, I've found that finally using baby wipes after starting to buy diapers, such as the Pampers Baby Fresh wipes I use now, makes the cleanup of a messy diaper a lot easier than I was used to before. What I used to do was use loads of toilet paper, normal flushable wipes (which flake off and hurt like hell sometimes, etc.
The sensitive baby wipes were a game changer. Clean-up is easy if you're not squeamish and just wipe your bottom vigorously. Once you can get past that part and the possibility of getting some grosssness
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on the hands which you then clean off immediately, then you're fine. Parents deal with this all the time and it's just a part of the changing. Sometimes you're gonna get grossed out a bit, but you just pull through because you have to. Or, in this case, because you enjoy a good mess.
If the smell is what bothers you, just know, after enough times doing it, you'll also be de-sensitized to your own messy clean-ups. It really isn't anything to gag over. I wouldn't hang around it and take it in, but it isn't something to cause me to throw up about or even close. If you like to sit in your messy diaper after pushing your gift/package into it, it will deform and possibly be harder (or maybe easier) to clean up. Know that, expect that, and prepare for it. Don't commit unless you are fully prepared to deal with the aftermath.
Blowouts are possible with big messes, but they aren't going to happen that often if you have normal size loads. A firm load is very easy to deal with and in my opinion is the best type to make in the diaper. A soft load while not too soft is also manageable. Anything in the wet/very wet variety are just a pain and I would never consider them super fun except maybe in the struggle to make them. This would be in the variety of like an enema or maybe a suppository.
Once you start messing for fun, there's a good chance you'll never want to go back to not doing it. The nerve endings in your sphincter are so euphoric after a nice solid load passes through them to crown out the anus and start to seep into your diaper. As you push more and more, you feel the weight of the load baring down on you as it spreads between your private parts and possibly up your back a tiny bit. It wraps you in solid possibly mushy warmth, and it is just divine.