JonahAteAWhale
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You don't have to talk about the details of your suffering. I'm just interested to meet other people who might be in a similar situation to me. So let's hang out here and chat!
People come in my room and tell me how I must keep it. I am forbidden to be abnormal. The stress is causing me to hallucinate and enter mind states beyond those experienced by the most common of humans.BobbiSueEllen said:Not only diapers but baby life in-general! I have autism--and, as one 1988 Army head-shrinker noted in my notes, "...immature and schizoid tendencies..." so I kinda know a little of where you're at, in addition to the fact both our disorders are related under the neurodivergence umbrella--so I live in a bit of a dual world myself. I didn't do anything to bring it on, there's enough 'guys and gals' out there dragging home half-racks or box-wines every night trying to get to their own little 'autistic' state on their own...it just happened to me. It's naturally-occurring. I tried to fit into the rest of the world. Didn't work. Most of them prefer I "get out of [my] world and get into the real world!" No way. I see what they do in their so-called 'real world' and I want no part of it, the hypocrites.
That is where diapers and baby life come in: my mind is frozen into that world. Sure, out in the so-called 'real world' I can get my needs met, get things done which need to be done...but in my room, that's my own world where nobody can judge me. Nobody can come in unless I approve of it. I can do it up any damn way I want. And what I want...is what I got: a crib, a high-chair, a rocking chair, crayons & coloring books, big baby clothes, big-baby toys, big-baby bottles & binkies...and whatever it takes to keep my bottom clean and dry, from plastic pants to diapers to wipes. Plus a TV, PC, shelving with eating utensils, a mini-fridge and a microwave. I have the best of both worlds here: they fill both my adult needs and my baby needs. I can doll up in a sweet dress & diaper cover, cuddle Bonnie as I rock away...waiting for dinner to warm up. That helps my inside feel happier, more confident...safer. I wish people understood how good that feels.
The crib in my room: that has done a world of good for me. It does more than hold my cute bedding, stuffies and me: it is my refuge within my refuge...my sanctum sanctorum, the Holiest of Holy Places. I sleep in there, cuddle Bonnie as we watch TV late at night, play on the internet, talk on the phone, listen to music...whether I'm wearing a diaper or not, whether I'm locked in or not. I feel extremely happy, extremely safe in my crib. And I get far better sleep in this crib than I ever have in the so-called best bed ever made.
Plus I can wear a diaper, piddle in it and get it as soggy-wet as I want to before I change diapers, plus get into a dress, an outfit, a onesie or a romper. I can play with toys as long as I want to, watch cartoons on TV as long as I want to, binky- or bottle-up. It's my world and they can't have it. They don't want it so more for me! I gladly accept it all.
Let' em go to hell in their own way with their box-wines, beers and middle-class-supremacy bible-lives. I'm alive, copin' an' doin' juuuust fiiiine.
I can neither help them nor pity them. They have made it clear that they think I am in the wrong and I don't belong. One can't help another who thinks they're right when they're wrong. I will neither hinder nor harm them but they made their messages clear to me. So...that is on them. My hands are clean.JonahAteAWhale said:I am sorry this is very long please allow me to respond in small parts. First as to the world of the muggles: they are also suffering. They do not have our powers. Do not pity them, help them.
Sanctum Sanctorum, Corpus Christi, BenedictusBobbiSueEllen said:Not only diapers but baby life in-general! I have autism--and, as one 1988 Army head-shrinker noted in my notes, "...immature and schizoid tendencies..." so I kinda know a little of where you're at, in addition to the fact both our disorders are related under the neurodivergence umbrella--so I live in a bit of a dual world myself. I didn't do anything to bring it on, there's enough 'guys and gals' out there dragging home half-racks or box-wines every night trying to get to their own little 'autistic' state on their own...it just happened to me. It's naturally-occurring. I tried to fit into the rest of the world. Didn't work. Most of them prefer I "get out of [my] world and get into the real world!" No way. I see what they do in their so-called 'real world' and I want no part of it, the hypocrites.
That is where diapers and baby life come in: my mind is frozen into that world. Sure, out in the so-called 'real world' I can get my needs met, get things done which need to be done...but in my room, that's my own world where nobody can judge me. Nobody can come in unless I approve of it. I can do it up any damn way I want. And what I want...is what I got: a crib, a high-chair, a rocking chair, crayons & coloring books, big baby clothes, big-baby toys, big-baby bottles & binkies...and whatever it takes to keep my bottom clean and dry, from plastic pants to diapers to wipes. Plus a TV, PC, shelving with eating utensils, a mini-fridge and a microwave. I have the best of both worlds here: they fill both my adult needs and my baby needs. I can doll up in a sweet dress & diaper cover, cuddle Bonnie as I rock away...waiting for dinner to warm up. That helps my inside feel happier, more confident...safer. I wish people understood how good that feels.
The crib in my room: that has done a world of good for me. It does more than hold my cute bedding, stuffies and me: it is my refuge within my refuge...my sanctum sanctorum, the Holiest of Holy Places. I sleep in there, cuddle Bonnie as we watch TV late at night, play on the internet, talk on the phone, listen to music...whether I'm wearing a diaper or not, whether I'm locked in or not. I feel extremely happy, extremely safe in my crib. And I get far better sleep in this crib than I ever have in the so-called best bed ever made.
Plus I can wear a diaper, piddle in it and get it as soggy-wet as I want to before I change diapers, plus get into a dress, an outfit, a onesie or a romper. I can play with toys as long as I want to, watch cartoons on TV as long as I want to, binky- or bottle-up. It's my world and they can't have it. They don't want it so more for me! I gladly accept it all.
Let' em go to hell in their own way with their box-wines, beers and middle-class-supremacy bible-lives. I'm alive, copin' an' doin' juuuust fiiiine.
I'm a Wizard you know. It's not just in my imagination it's real. I'm a Wizard. I'm extra-ordinarily powerful.BobbiSueEllen said:I can neither help them nor pity them. They have made it clear that they think I am in the wrong and I don't belong. One can't help another who thinks they're right when they're wrong. I will neither hinder nor harm them but they made their messages clear to me. So...that is on them. My hands are clean.
This is really true.BobbiSueEllen said:Not only diapers but baby life in-general! I have autism--and, as one 1988 Army head-shrinker noted in my notes, "...immature and schizoid tendencies..." so I kinda know a little of where you're at, in addition to the fact both our disorders are related under the neurodivergence umbrella--so I live in a bit of a dual world myself. I didn't do anything to bring it on, there's enough 'guys and gals' out there dragging home half-racks or box-wines every night trying to get to their own little 'autistic' state on their own...it just happened to me. It's naturally-occurring. I tried to fit into the rest of the world. Didn't work. Most of them prefer I "get out of [my] world and get into the real world!" No way. I see what they do in their so-called 'real world' and I want no part of it, the hypocrites.
That is where diapers and baby life come in: my mind is frozen into that world. Sure, out in the so-called 'real world' I can get my needs met, get things done which need to be done...but in my room, that's my own world where nobody can judge me. Nobody can come in unless I approve of it. I can do it up any damn way I want. And what I want...is what I got: a crib, a high-chair, a rocking chair, crayons & coloring books, big baby clothes, big-baby toys, big-baby bottles & binkies...and whatever it takes to keep my bottom clean and dry, from plastic pants to diapers to wipes. Plus a TV, PC, shelving with eating utensils, a mini-fridge and a microwave. I have the best of both worlds here: they fill both my adult needs and my baby needs. I can doll up in a sweet dress & diaper cover, cuddle Bonnie as I rock away...waiting for dinner to warm up. That helps my inside feel happier, more confident...safer. I wish people understood how good that feels.
The crib in my room: that has done a world of good for me. It does more than hold my cute bedding, stuffies and me: it is my refuge within my refuge...my sanctum sanctorum, the Holiest of Holy Places. I sleep in there, cuddle Bonnie as we watch TV late at night, play on the internet, talk on the phone, listen to music...whether I'm wearing a diaper or not, whether I'm locked in or not. I feel extremely happy, extremely safe in my crib. And I get far better sleep in this crib than I ever have in the so-called best bed ever made.
Plus I can wear a diaper, piddle in it and get it as soggy-wet as I want to before I change diapers, plus get into a dress, an outfit, a onesie or a romper. I can play with toys as long as I want to, watch cartoons on TV as long as I want to, binky- or bottle-up. It's my world and they can't have it. They don't want it so more for me! I gladly accept it all.
Let' em go to hell in their own way with their box-wines, beers and middle-class-supremacy bible-lives. I'm alive, copin' an' doin' juuuust fiiiine.
Your thoughts pretty much concur with mine.Prillprillprill said:This is really true.
The world is a messed up place. Retreating into your mind where you can be whoever you want and build whatever world you want is really glorious.
When you're a child (physically);your mind is the the only protection you have and if you think about it it will be again when your body is old and all your friends are dead. No one can take that away from you.
If you see it for what it is the prejudice, the corruption, the willful ignorance. You cannot have your unmet childhood needs satisfied within the structure of external society. The hypocrites have the final say. The mentally ill are not given any place on society, and no one's cares about the adult survivors of childhood abuse. All you have is your own mind, and guess what that's all you need.
I think that actually saying, I'm not going to look to anyone else to complete me, or save me, I'm going to actually give that comfort to myself, I think that's actually very mature. Wearing a nappy is the most immediate comfort, and it's so powerful. No one else knows and it's not their business. Wearing a nappy is my own way to sooth myself in a world that has harmed me in a multitude of ways.
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