I wanted to see if I could go without wearing diapers; so one day I put on regular underwear, initially I thought I could do it. However, soon the pressure and pain started and I had to go to the bathroom, I thought, ok that's done, but within twenty minutes the pressure and need to go again came back, this happened for most of the day. I realized that I cannot be near a toilet all day like this and couldn't wait to put on a diaper. I have worn diapers 24/7 for over a year, and wearing them made me feel comfortable and secure. I don't think I will try to go without a diaper anytime soon. I realized that I need to wear diapers, and that this attempt to make it go away doesn't work. I look at this effort was not a failure but a realization that for me feeling comfortable and secure is much better than enduring the effect of urge incontinence is much worse than wearing a diaper.