Virtual_Gravity_27
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- Diaper Lover
So,
I'm about to have an experience of a lifetime.
My girlfriend is going to be my babysitter.
I've wanted this since I was six.
It's a security thing for me, but also sexual. I've been a DL,
but the AB side has grown on me.
She's on the same page as me, and she's willing to fulfill my fantasy. It's the nicest thing anyone has ever offered to do for me.
Problem is, I don't know what to do when I will be deep in role-play with her,
and then if I do find sexual fulfilment in the moment and the retraction period comes up....
Because everything falls apart. Suddenly I feel stupid, not interested in diapers or being little because I just feel embarassed and uncomfortable in a diaper, and now I'm not sure how to handle this.
Should I just wait until the absolute end (night-time?) to relieve my urges? I feel like this will be torture/impossible.
Or what do I do? How do I handle relieving my sexual urges, and then feeling like an idiot sitting in front of my girlfriend, as a full grown adult....in a diaper and pacifier, etc? It takes a while, but after maybe 45 minutes, the feelings come back.
How does anyone else deal with it?
I'm about to have an experience of a lifetime.
My girlfriend is going to be my babysitter.
I've wanted this since I was six.
It's a security thing for me, but also sexual. I've been a DL,
but the AB side has grown on me.
She's on the same page as me, and she's willing to fulfill my fantasy. It's the nicest thing anyone has ever offered to do for me.
Problem is, I don't know what to do when I will be deep in role-play with her,
and then if I do find sexual fulfilment in the moment and the retraction period comes up....
Because everything falls apart. Suddenly I feel stupid, not interested in diapers or being little because I just feel embarassed and uncomfortable in a diaper, and now I'm not sure how to handle this.
Should I just wait until the absolute end (night-time?) to relieve my urges? I feel like this will be torture/impossible.
Or what do I do? How do I handle relieving my sexual urges, and then feeling like an idiot sitting in front of my girlfriend, as a full grown adult....in a diaper and pacifier, etc? It takes a while, but after maybe 45 minutes, the feelings come back.
How does anyone else deal with it?