What are some of the thoughts that make you feel negatively about it? I'd private message you, but for right now, you can't answer back. Don't you worry. They don't take ABDLs' kids away, unless said ABDLs are also abusive and/or neglectful assholes, which I'm sure you aren't. You have the good sense not to flaunt it to your kids, just like pretty much every parent here, so you're sane.