At this point, if I'm to buy diapers again, I'd consider just wearing them for stress relief. I can't afford to use them and even though I know I'd clean myself immediately after usage, it's too risky right now. Hopefully I'll get my own place to stay. Then I'd consider using my diapers.
One thing for certain is that diapers helped cure my MTD voice disorder that I had a couple of months ago.