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I am shaking, maybe I am just cold, but this is getting pretty close to hitting the nail on the head for me. I tried seeing therapists in the past but I always said my childhood was fairly normal and uneventful. It's not quite the same level as you describe for DID, but its in the same family. I protected myself from the past, while I was kinda desperate to know more of it. Its memories like the last box of diapers when I was potty trained, that's a vague memory that I kept in the shadows till really pushing hard to explore it this week. Ok not shaking now, I can get body tremor type of shakes when I am emotional sometimes, I have essential tremors so it might be related to that neurological issue. I need to go eat and walk away from the laptop. Again, thank you for the deep thoughts, I have some new stuff to talk to the therapist about. Last monday we talked for an hour about this side of me, we had touched on it in the past, she was the person that said I should indulge in this self caring, I really thought it was just a poor coping mechanism from my childhood, with a twist of kink. It didn't start as a kink or anything sexual. I think that only happened with the confusion of puberty.
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