Raven801
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Where to start I've been bladder incontinent for over a year had a lot of urology appointments had every test you can imagine and I swear if they even mention a cytoscope again some one is getting slapped after going through that 9 times I've had it. And for some reason every time I go to a Dr appointment I just get more bad news. It's been so bad the last 8 months I have pulled away from going out in public. I've basically been a shut in I have had several hospital stays and so many Dr visits it cost me my job of 14 years I'm losing everything including my sanity. I often wonder why is it humane to put an animal out of misery and pain but that isn't applicable to humans? I'm often in so much pain I can't sleep or eat. And because I'm in pain I have been unable to do any of the things that make life worth living to me.
I often fantasize about grabbing my scuba gear and going down with several extra tanks and going really deep until I get some serious nitrogen narcosis going on and just let it take me...at least I'd go out doing something I loved and it would be on my terms. Does that sound crazy?
I'm tired of watching everything I worked for get sold and disappear. I'm tired of being a burden to family and I'm tired of the pain and most of all I'm tired of ibs and bladder issues. Another rant by yours truly. Hoping someone else who is in a similar situation reads this ... Maybe we can help each other..... Maybe all it takes is for someone to offer a different perspective.... I dunno I wish I was a wise man but alas I am not. For I am just a man.
I often fantasize about grabbing my scuba gear and going down with several extra tanks and going really deep until I get some serious nitrogen narcosis going on and just let it take me...at least I'd go out doing something I loved and it would be on my terms. Does that sound crazy?
I'm tired of watching everything I worked for get sold and disappear. I'm tired of being a burden to family and I'm tired of the pain and most of all I'm tired of ibs and bladder issues. Another rant by yours truly. Hoping someone else who is in a similar situation reads this ... Maybe we can help each other..... Maybe all it takes is for someone to offer a different perspective.... I dunno I wish I was a wise man but alas I am not. For I am just a man.