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- Adult Baby
- Diaper Lover
I got involved in this community back in 2017, I was going through high school, I was processing a lot of feelings I had had since childhood, and a lot of parental issues and childhood trauma. Like a lot of people, I had an interest in diapers from a young age, and I found like minded people to confide in. Through all the stress and strife in my life, I resonated with quaint, wholesome AR pictures, depicting playground visits, sleep overs, etc. I felt like I had people that understood me.
I should say this isn't a kink for me, I have my problems but the wholesome warmth and peace I get from being an ABDL is one of the things I treasure most. I understand that it is a kink for many people, and I don't have a problem with that. But since ~2020, I noticed just how rare quaint art like that is nowadays. Artists that never allowed nsfw, now drawing more and more sexual content. Even when it isn't, it heavily emphasizes diaper usage over relatable nostalgic themes. It was such a gradual change I didn't even realize it until years later. I know its a personal matter, I'm not here to debate controversy or stir the pot, but I do think its a quantifiable shift in intention.
I feel so conflicted, to see people I admire change, and to feel increasingly estranged in a community I felt I could be understood for who I was.
A lot of that is why i came to ADISC last year, was to get back in touch with that feeling. But outside of ADISC, I couldn't feel more out of place than around artists and their fans.
Part of me just wants to know if people understand how I feel. I can't change people, and I don't expect to, but the feeling of being alone in this chips away at me.
I should say this isn't a kink for me, I have my problems but the wholesome warmth and peace I get from being an ABDL is one of the things I treasure most. I understand that it is a kink for many people, and I don't have a problem with that. But since ~2020, I noticed just how rare quaint art like that is nowadays. Artists that never allowed nsfw, now drawing more and more sexual content. Even when it isn't, it heavily emphasizes diaper usage over relatable nostalgic themes. It was such a gradual change I didn't even realize it until years later. I know its a personal matter, I'm not here to debate controversy or stir the pot, but I do think its a quantifiable shift in intention.
I feel so conflicted, to see people I admire change, and to feel increasingly estranged in a community I felt I could be understood for who I was.
A lot of that is why i came to ADISC last year, was to get back in touch with that feeling. But outside of ADISC, I couldn't feel more out of place than around artists and their fans.
Part of me just wants to know if people understand how I feel. I can't change people, and I don't expect to, but the feeling of being alone in this chips away at me.