safaridaze
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HELP: I told my SO about my diapers a few weeks ago. In general, she is likely being more supportive than I could be. I try and realize what her world must be when I am not who she thought I was. And, I get it is a blow to the trust. I have just asked her to realize how hard it was for me to bring someone else into a secret I had planned to take to my grave. And that I have spent most of my life ashamed about it, so opening up to someone I love was not so easy - A boy wants to make his girl proud!
In the end, I think we both want to figure something out, but do not know what that looks like. I am considering just telling her that I will use them when I am alone and keep them away from her. however, I fear that it will grind on me over time. I will feel kinda rejected and like I need to hide a part of me from my best friend. And this will eventually become a little resentful, and then the beginning of the end starts.
I am wondering for those who have a SO that knows, but does not want to see it or engage in it, do you feel this way? I just fear doing it in hiding keeps the feeling that I am doing something wrong and the shame that goes with it alive. Any thoughts or advise?
In the end, I think we both want to figure something out, but do not know what that looks like. I am considering just telling her that I will use them when I am alone and keep them away from her. however, I fear that it will grind on me over time. I will feel kinda rejected and like I need to hide a part of me from my best friend. And this will eventually become a little resentful, and then the beginning of the end starts.
I am wondering for those who have a SO that knows, but does not want to see it or engage in it, do you feel this way? I just fear doing it in hiding keeps the feeling that I am doing something wrong and the shame that goes with it alive. Any thoughts or advise?