So I just started my diaper adventure. I’ve always loved the comfort of wearing one. I remember being around 7 and taking some of my little brothers diapers to try secretly. I haven’t thought about it too much or tried since then. (I’m 34 now) But recently I had a surgical proceedure to fix stress incontinence and had some bladder spasms that made me leak a whole bladder unexpectedly. I decided to get some “fancy panties” to ensure no embarrassment when out and about. Wearing them reignited my love for the comfort of diapers. I told my husband about the leaks and need for them but haven’t said anything about the fact that I actually like them. I have been wearing 24hrs for just over a week. I haven’t had a surprise leak in probably 5 days which I guess is a good thing since it means my bladder is settling down. I have not used a toilet for #1s in a week which is awesome but weird. Lol. I love wearing them so I haven’t told him I really don’t need them anymore. Ugh.
In the last week I’ve found that when I am home alone I can relax and wet frequently or even have a constant dribble in just about any position except sitting. As soon as he gets home its over! I even have a hard time peeing in a standing position unless I am in the washroom.
This morning the minute I heard the door close with him leaving for work the gates opened and I released a huge flood in my “pull-up in bed. it had kept me up most of the night and I was refusing to give in and hit the washroom. I imagine as I wear them it will get easier. I can even go standing in a aisle at the local store if I’m wearing the right protection. But the minute he’s there nope! We went to a movie the other night. I went with a full bladder bought a big cola and got comfy for the show excited to use the diaper at the theater. I usually have to get up part way through to go to the washroom even if I start empty. I had to go soooo bad but could not release to save my life. After the show I headed to the washroom and the minute I was in the ladies room (not even in a stall) I flooded my pull-up.
I really need to get over it but I think I’m probably concerned hes going to catch me wetting on purpose. Having out in a wet diaper when he is home is completely out of the question but in the day when I’m home alone I’ll leave it on until it starts to cool down or I think it’s going to leak. Since I haven’t told him I like it that could get very awkward quickly. I’ll likely eventually tell him. He’s pretty open minded sexually and we have a lot of fun with toys etc so he’ll probably take it ok. But I know he would not like if I went 24/7 always. I am not interested in messing my diaper at all! I don’t find them sexual and I’m not into the whole baby thing. I just like the comfort and feel of the diapers. I do like the convenience of being able to lay on the couch for hours and not move if I don’t want to.
In the last week I’ve found that when I am home alone I can relax and wet frequently or even have a constant dribble in just about any position except sitting. As soon as he gets home its over! I even have a hard time peeing in a standing position unless I am in the washroom.
This morning the minute I heard the door close with him leaving for work the gates opened and I released a huge flood in my “pull-up in bed. it had kept me up most of the night and I was refusing to give in and hit the washroom. I imagine as I wear them it will get easier. I can even go standing in a aisle at the local store if I’m wearing the right protection. But the minute he’s there nope! We went to a movie the other night. I went with a full bladder bought a big cola and got comfy for the show excited to use the diaper at the theater. I usually have to get up part way through to go to the washroom even if I start empty. I had to go soooo bad but could not release to save my life. After the show I headed to the washroom and the minute I was in the ladies room (not even in a stall) I flooded my pull-up.
I really need to get over it but I think I’m probably concerned hes going to catch me wetting on purpose. Having out in a wet diaper when he is home is completely out of the question but in the day when I’m home alone I’ll leave it on until it starts to cool down or I think it’s going to leak. Since I haven’t told him I like it that could get very awkward quickly. I’ll likely eventually tell him. He’s pretty open minded sexually and we have a lot of fun with toys etc so he’ll probably take it ok. But I know he would not like if I went 24/7 always. I am not interested in messing my diaper at all! I don’t find them sexual and I’m not into the whole baby thing. I just like the comfort and feel of the diapers. I do like the convenience of being able to lay on the couch for hours and not move if I don’t want to.