ozbub
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Acceptance is that ideal that every ABDL strives to achieve, but is it really just a fanciful pipe dream, that will never actually be realised. Or perhaps acceptance is really just resignation.
The double edged sword of acceptance for me is like this.... after such a long journey toward accepting and learning to love who I am, and reaching that point of feeling free to be that person, I have become increasingly aware that I must curtail my impulses because what I have come to accept about myself remains unacceptable to society.
The further I travel in life, and the more connected in society, the more trapped I become in others’ illusions of who I am and what I ought to be. I know I have the choice to reject this, but the ramifications are unthinkable.
The reality is that even though I’ve unlocked the closet door, I can never step through it without inverting everything in my life.
Acceptance therefore is just an illusion - in accepting myself I must also accept that I am unacceptable.
Elation quickly fades into dysphoria.
I hear ‘balance’ echoing in the wisdom of the oracles, and I understand what that means, but sadly it also means that acceptance is, at least for me, a bitter double edged sword.
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Just wanted to add, I still actively and regularly regress and enjoy engaging the AB/little part of me. It’s just that im becoming increasingly sad at having to constantly shut down natural innocent impulses.
The double edged sword of acceptance for me is like this.... after such a long journey toward accepting and learning to love who I am, and reaching that point of feeling free to be that person, I have become increasingly aware that I must curtail my impulses because what I have come to accept about myself remains unacceptable to society.
The further I travel in life, and the more connected in society, the more trapped I become in others’ illusions of who I am and what I ought to be. I know I have the choice to reject this, but the ramifications are unthinkable.
The reality is that even though I’ve unlocked the closet door, I can never step through it without inverting everything in my life.
Acceptance therefore is just an illusion - in accepting myself I must also accept that I am unacceptable.
Elation quickly fades into dysphoria.
I hear ‘balance’ echoing in the wisdom of the oracles, and I understand what that means, but sadly it also means that acceptance is, at least for me, a bitter double edged sword.
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Just wanted to add, I still actively and regularly regress and enjoy engaging the AB/little part of me. It’s just that im becoming increasingly sad at having to constantly shut down natural innocent impulses.