pampersguy said:
Don't be offended but it almost sounds like you would welcome such diagnosis. After receiving the diagnosis in what way would your life take a turn for the better? You'd still have the same problems. Knowing the cause for a problem feels comforting for most pepole but it really is not making a difference. Not unless knowing the cause empowers you to take the right and effective actions. With autism there is no cure whatsoever.
You'll have to deal with the world and the world will have to deal with you. That's what you gotta learn. From what I read you can reflect on yourself and other people quiet well.
Another member mentioned the transition phase. I strongly encourage you to re read this. With 19 you are FAR away from adulthood. Most people in that age are totally childish. Not bad per se though but they think they are adults already. That's a real pain in the butt!
I'm about ten years older thab that and now I slowly start feeling adult as I feel the burden of responsibilities on my shoulders. I care not only for myself but for two other people, my own family we started.
Just take a break and chill.
i actually would welcome it. the only time ive ever had people be considerate to my issues was when they believed me that i might be, every other time people are rude. i would have the same problems but at least id know what was wrong and people wouldnt be trying to fix what cant actually be fixed.
ive had way too much time to think. for the majority of my childhood/younger teen years i was basically isolated in my room. theres just a lot to the world thats hard for me to deal with without help. fluorescent lights are never gonna get any less fluorescent, the sun isnt just gonna. stop being so bright. bad touch feels and smells and sounds wont get any less bad, but if i actually am autistic and get a diagnosis itll help bc ill have a verifiable reason for the specific problems i have and people cant say im just being a brat or attention seeking when im not. kinda hard to deal with the world when you cant
and without a proper diagnosis theres a lot of services meant to help people that i wouldnt be able to access.
also... i am an adult lmao i can buy alcohol, smokes, and vote, legally i am an adult. maturity has nothin to do with it
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KimbaWolfNagihiko said:
Actually, getting a diagnosis CAN help. Not only did it let me put a name on my various issues, it also means opening up doors to services for the disabled. For example, I'm currently working with an agency to see if they can help me find employment.
i know actually getting a gender identity dysphoria, depression, and anxiety diagnosis's helped since people actually knew what was wrong instead of "lmao idk hes probably just weird?". the dysphoria diagnosis gave me access to hormones, similar idea i guess
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BabyKai said:
Again, I'd say try to find a better psychologist. Nobody should treat you like that and make you nervous. Tell the person who refers you to get assessed everything you wrote down there. Autism is a very big spectrum and no two autistic people are the same. I started talking at a normal-ish age. I understand emotions ... not so good lol. But then again, you have PTSD and are hyperaware of things going on around you. PTSD could effect you in ways that may mask your possible autism. I was actually first diagnosed with ADHD before I was diagnosed with autism. My hyperactiveness sort of masked my severe autistic behaviours. So the doctor automatically assumed "oh, some Ritalin will fix this." And then once my ADHD symptoms went, my autism was very obvious because I wasn't running around.
A lot of my autistic symptoms (like hand flapping, spinning, rocking and no eye contact) was assumed to be part of my ADHD. So, yeah, another disability could very well effect the way a psychologist may perceive you and your behaviours.
And don't worry about not having many places to talk about this stuff. You can talk about it with me if you want... I'm a good listener and I've been through all the crappy tests lol. My life is filled with so many psychologists and therapist that I could probably get a PhD in the damn thing now. Hahaha.
i moved to a new town so i need a new therapist anyway. and yeah, like an idiot i didnt write down anything before and didnt know what to say or what to mention and didnt have any script of any kind to fall back on,, rip,,
i notice when im on anxiety meds i have less inhibitions (if thats the right word) and do things like flap or rock or chewing/sucking on things (like one of those silicone necklace toys from stimtastic) etc
im kind of a clusterfuck and i know this, i already have 3-4 diagnosis's and a recommendation from my doctor to talk to a shrink about psychosis. as well as a host of other things im struggling with that no ones acknowledged even when i mention them. im just worried ill have to go through a million people and a million diagnosis's as they try to figure out whats wrong, and that they wont listen to what i say because im just some 19 year old who did research on the internet. (more like reading a couple university psych textbooks but older adults are just Like That, all dismissive and junk) im also worried about being accused of being a hypochondriac or something and using that to dismiss me since im relatively normal (thanks anxiety for not letting me act in any way that could be seen as off, i love internalizing everything
))) /sarcasm)
sigh, at least im starting to be more willing to talk to people about it. before i just assumed i was broken and kept it to myself and was all like "no im fine i just have a headache" or "im just tired" or just pretending to nap when i was having issues
thanks for listenin to my rambling btw !
i appreciate it