Diapered Elderly Caitian in 2024...

[caitianx]

4/12/2024 - 11:50 -
As a "Little/Adult Baby" I do not do sex - ever.
It is not childlike.
Sex is dirty.
Sex is yucky.
Sex is filth.
I do not kiss girls/ladies ever either.
Internally as an elderly developmentally disabled person, I am "still a child".
That part of the adult world I never want any part of.
The only hugs and cuddles I get are from my soft plushie toys.
I associate hugs from humans to be yucky bad touches/touching of my body.
Sigh...
I need to get ready to go out shortly.
I need to pack diapers, baby powder, and baby wipes.
Plus a plushie.
One of my "new" plushies is:
"ERNST DAS SCHWEIN"
The reference is to the real-life "Gay Pig", "Ernst Rohm".
Even by Gay standards of the 1920's and 1930's he was a piece of shit.

 

[caitianx]

4/12/2024 - 17:08 -
I am okay.
I just returned home from being in East Derry.
Church meeting.
Diaconate.
A question is asked:
How in Hell can a Church Deacon also be an "Adult Baby/Little"?
I also went to the Taylor Library to check out their collection.
There are a couple books about Autism.
Well, I need to wind-down and have Supper before the next Sexual Minority Civil Rights/Support Group Meeting at 19:00.
Yeah!
So many things for me to do to not be emotionally wallowing in my own downer feelings when they just "happen".

 

[caitianx]

4/12/2024 - 20:16 -
I am now continuing to wind-down for the evening.
It was good to interact with friends online via teleconference between 19:00 and 20:00.
Yes.
I need "ERNIE" ELEPHANT plushie friend.
I need solitude for the rest of the evening to recover from a lot of social interaction today as an elderly Autistic.

 

[caitianx]

4/13/2024 - 8:46 -
Woke up @ ~ 1:30.
Pooing in my diaper.
Tummy upset.
Went back to bed.
Anyway, I am cleaned up, diapered, and dressed.
Another teleconference @ 12:00.
Then at 16:30 being picked up for a face-to-face meeting up in Concord here in New Hampshire @ 18:00.
Welcome to my Saturday.

 

[caitianx]

4/14/2024 - 19:11 -
Sigh...
Too much being an "Adult" for the last 2 days straight.
But necessary.
Responsibility.
Little to no time to "regress" until this afternoon.
After my nap I had some time to quietly play with LEGO for 90 minutes straight.
Now it is time for Educational Television watching until bedtime.

 

[caitianx]

4/14/2024 - 20:45 -
Earlier I had my daily evening medications.
Online on YouTube I have been watching documentaries.
History and now Science.
I have undressed to just a t-shirt and diaper.
My "comfortable" evening attire alone by myself in my bedroom.
My roomate is in his bedroom watching CATV.
We have different tastes in entertainment.
But there is some convergance, in that some of the stuff I have on DVD for old TV shows that I like that he also likes.
Yes.
This morning I went to church.
I do not hide in my bedroom all the time.
I do have a life.
On my own social terms as an Autistic who is now elderly.

 

[KBoy]

A peaceful night gentle caitianx
Pleasant and Gentle dreams
I think about you sometimes
It is comforting

 

[caitianx]

4/15/2024 - 16:50 -
I have been quiet all day long.
I am up from my nap.
As always my hands restrained in the medical restraint mittens during the nap.
I have not had any television yet today.
I will admit to sad feelings again.
Not about myself though.
External factors.
Concern for somebody else in the local Autism Community who I feel is in real danger with guardians who are MAGA FANATICS armed to the teeth with dozens of Automatic Pistols, AR-15 Semi-Automatic Assault Rifles, and a couple thousand rounds of ammunition in the house down where he lives in Salem, New Hampshire.
This other Autistic man is 68 years old, 2 years older than I am.
For the NH State department of ID/DD Services to extract him from the "situation" he is living under with his "freedom" taken-away by his whacked-out TRUMP MAGA guardians, they are going to need the Salem, NH Police Department SWAT TEAM to eventually "storm" where he is living to extricate him.

 

[caitianx]

4/15/2024 - 20:33 -
Earlier I was in a video chat with a diapered Autistic friend of mine out in Oklahoma.
I had also taken my evening medications.
Plus, with difficulty as an Autistic with Cerebral Palsy I cut my toenails on my right foot.
I am in my wheelchair.
I will note, that this evening I did not watch the news on the television.

 

[caitianx]

4/16/2024 - 17:16 -
I am okay.
Quiet all day.
I am up from my afternoon nap.

 

[caitianx]

4/16/2024 - 19:37 -
Earlier I took a walk for exercise using my blue pair of Loftstrand crutches.
"L", age 12 one of my neighbor's son was out on his bicycle.
I introduced him to "J", age 13 who is Autistic like me, and they started for the first time to play with each other.
I also talked to "J's" mom for a bit.
"K's" evening nurse was there.
"K", "J's" older sister has Cerebral Palsy.
Non-Ambulatory, non-walker.
She is age 15 and is Intellectually Disabled.
Her Mom put "COCOMELION" on to entertain her for the rest of the evening until she will fall asleep.
She only watches Preschool/Toddler Television programs and is read simple picture/words board books.
"K's" type of Cerebral Palsy is "Spastic Quadraplegia".
In her own limited way, she knows I am like her in that I have Cerebral Palsy besides Autism.

 

[caitianx]

4/16/2024 - 22:07 -
I am in Night Owl Mode.
I am quietly watching Science documentaries.
Yes.
I am slowly getting ready for bed.
Earlier I took my evening medications.
I am undressed and in my physical comfort mode, only wearing a diaper.
Also earlier I emptied the pee-pee/poo-poo tray of my potty chair.
I also scrubbed it clean.
Yes.
I put it back into my potty chair to receive pee-pee and poo-poo tomorrow morning again.

 

[caitianx]

4/17/2024 - 20:37 -
I have been busy today.
A short time ago I got out of an important teleconference.
Afterwards I took my evening medications.
I really have not gotten to watch television online until now at this time in the evening.
Sigh...
I admit again to sad feelings.
No time to regress and to be "Little" today until now.

 

[caitianx]

4/18/2024 - 9:41 -
Yes.
I am cleaned up, diapered, and dressed for the day.
First medication of the day has been taken.
Outside it is overcast.
Rain?
It will be an indoor activity day.

 

[caitianx]

4/18/2024 - 12:17 -
On and off the toilet all morning long pooping myself out.
Yes.
Dirty diapers.
My video entertainment this morning has been on DVD:
THE UNTOUCHABLES
MISSION: IMPOSSIBLE
Yes.
I did have today's Meals on Wheels Lunch for the Elderly.
I also took my 2nd medication of the day.
Now for some quiet play time with baby toys before nap time at 13:00.

 

[caitianx]

4/18/2024 - 17:25 -
I never do sicko stuff.
My hands were restrained and encased in the medical restraint mittens all afternoon after a short play time with baby toys.
On CATV in my Living Room I am only watching the adult person news I am allowed to watch:
CNN
Then:
WMUR-TV
Until 19:00.
Zero fruitcake made-up news.
Supper is cooking.
Chicken 3.1415926.
It is time to play with "POOPY TOO BEAR"...

 

[caitianx]

4/18/2024 - 19:40 -
After Supper I switched immediately to watching Educational Television online:
HITLER'S CIRCLE OF EVIL
ANCIENT EARTH: DINOSAURS OF ANTARCTICA
I am spending time with my plushie, HARCOURT UNICORN.
Also earlier I emptied and cleaned out the pee-pee/poo-poo tray of my adult potty chair.
Plus I hand washed/rinsed one of my pairs of plastic pants and hung it up to dry.

 

[caitianx]

4/19/2024 - 7:35 -
I am up early.
Cleaned up, diapered, and dressed.
Later at 10:40 the MTA CART Paratransit Service is taking me downtown.
I already took my first medication of the day.
I am packing what I need for dydees to be out downtown.

 

[caitianx]

4/19/2024 - 9:00 -
(BLEEP!)
I admit that it stinks to be transferring on and off the toilet in my bathroom at home to change dirty diapers multiple times every darn morning "after" the morning daily diuretic medication takes effect.
Uncontrollable spasms in my bladder and my bowel, purging myself out without ever using any (BLEEP!) laxatives.
Despite being in diapers 24/7, every darn morning I am a toilet/potty chair slave.
Anyway, my 82 year-old roommate is out.
He will return later.

 

[caitianx]

4/19/2024 - 16:38 -
I am okay.
A short time ago I returned home from being downtown.
Yes..
I had stopped at the CVS Pharmacy at the corner of NH Route 28 and NH Route 102 for 2 20-count packages of L/XL Adult Diapers.
I had also gotten a haircut.
Now I look less like one of those Taliban Crazies.
I also stopped at the MARION GERRISH SENIOR CITIZENS CENTER "Thrift Store", and found agood condition used movie on DVD for $1.00:
PATTON
Yes.
World War II's General "Blood & Guts", Field Marshall Erwin Rommel's equal.
ADOLF (SHIT)LER really fucked-up big-time when he ordered Rommel's execution after the Stauffenberg Bomb Plot assassination attempt.