Diaper lovers, what got you started?

[Seabear]

I have loved the thought of wearing nappies for as long as I can remember. I have the a really distant vague memory from when I was a young child that must of got me into this, I was punished from having a accident in my pants so was put to bed that evening in a nappy. I remember that lovely bulky padded feeling between my legs which I had realised I had missed since being out of nappies. I don’t know if it was meant to be a punishment or just a precaution and can’t remember if I wet it or not but it was definitely a treat!

 

[goodniteswearer89]

What got me started was I was around 13 or so and found some pull ups at my aunts house one day that she had for a younger cousin and I decided to try one on and liked how it felt and how I looked and I also liked how the feeling I got knowing I wasn’t supposed to be wearing them since they were for little kids. I decided after I put it on to wear it home and hide it from everyone and I thought I had it hid good enough until one day when mom came up to me and asked me about it and said she found it in my room and I got told I wasn’t supposed to wear them since they are for little kids but that didn’t stop me I would find more diapers at other relatives and take them home and try to hide them but it seemed like no matter how hard I tried to hide them mom would filed them somehow. This continued on until I moved out and got my own place when I would eventually buy my own goodnites along with some baby items like food and pacifier and a bottle.

 

[TexHagrid]

According to my therapist, childhood trauma. Diapers were a transitional object.

 

[Subtlerustle]

According to my therapist, childhood trauma. Diapers were a transitional object.

I think this is common. Trauma can be a relatively minor thing like potty training issues or something really serious. To a child it’s subjective. For us factory installed DL’s (ie DL predates our memories) it can meld in the transitional object era as well. I think these both explain my DL tendencies which morphed with my age but still going strong north of 50.
What’s important is that people of younger generations leverage our experiences and not live the shame/binge/purge problems associated with this “thing”.

 

[diaper12321lover]

Porn. Watching a girl expell a 2qt enema into a diaper. Enemas use to be my number one love. Now it’s my diapers.

 

[Brumas94]

According to my therapist, childhood trauma. Diapers were a transitional object.

The same for me.

 

[iPad]

Ironically, I got started by not knowing (or caring) what AB/DL meant when I bought an outfit on Etsy that I loved the look of.

In fact, I had it for over a year before I even noticed that it had poppers to open the outfit at the crotch as I didn't wear it often at the time.

When I finally put 2+2 together, I figured that I should try buying a pack of adult diapers to basically see what it felt like, and despite some initial reservations, I became more confortable with it.

I then found different nappies that I was more confortable with and better fitting clothing etc and eventually everything just fell into place.

 

[DLPeakOut]

I wear diapers and plastic pants for personal pleasure. I wet them and enjoy being in them to max out capacity. I do this on my own and like times at weekends on my own without stress. Thankful i can still cboose to wear and keep a small collection of different types for the right mood!

The anticipation rises when looking at diapers and plastic pants and putting them.on to hug the body. Its waking in the morning with a wet bulging diaper and warm plastic pants thats an amzing feeling to those with this kink. Its a great sensation of security, convienience and a little naughty.

I am 60. I cant remember why i was always under a special cloud when diapers were around. The sound and smell was always a great impression. I have worn diapers and plastic pants when i can, since i lived on my own when i was 20. Why? I dont know. I loved the feeling of plastic to the skin, the diaper swelling and the feeling of being secure. I tried to stop it and for a while it worked but the desire returns over and over. Wearing a diaper is like true peaceful existance.

I had a good childhood and loving family. A great job and circle of frienda. I always regressed to diapers and plastic pants as an escape and do so still today.

 

[lilcamper]

As soon as I met my first partner and she first asked me what I was into, ageplay wasn't something I was familiar with, but I told her I liked mommy stuff, or something like that. Fast forward some months of ageplay, and I went on to get some littlepaws with her (which were huge on us) and try them on. I didn't really like how they felt at the time, and it was a pretty rough relationship for me emotionally, and I repressed my desires following. I didn't like how they felt, and how that relationship felt. I didn't want to think I wanted what I do..

Fast forward almost a decade, and at work, someone came in who seemed to have something like plastic pants or a diaper cover poking out of their pants. Something! That's for sure. I didn't want to look too much, but I really, really, wanted to read what was on it. Unfortunately, I didn't have my glasses, and was worried I was staring, but I spent a lot of time trying to figure out what they were.
I then realized I was envious, and I spent the rest of my day trying to find out what they were wearing. I've yet to try disposables again, but I realized how badly I want everything since that day. Oopsie. I ordered training pants, cloth diapers, and I think since accepting myself, I feel so much happier.
I've wet my bed a few times since my first relationship because of dreams involving pee, nightmares, or gosh knows what, and I wish it happened more. Again, oopsie! And I look forward to my next oopsie.
I really, really wanna try prefolds and have them pinned on me by my current partner. I miss the feelings of wetness, etc.

 

[LittleAndAlone]

The alluring plump shiny comfy crinkly ruffled looks and intoxicating smell of older plastic Luvs and Pampers at age 6-7 or so.

One day I just saw them there opened somewhere, and it stopped me dead in my tracks. I looked around and saw nobody and suddenly felt a million butterflies in my tummy. Just completely randomly took me by surprise.

I snuck one under my shirt and went to the bathroom to lock the door and inspect my prize in private. I buried my face in it and inhaled that wonderful scent then nervously unbuttoned my pants and started to put it on. I remember trembling like crazy when I realized the tapes would reach the front and fit me and when I felt the bulk and leg gathers get close and snug.



It just felt so right and so wrong at the same time, it was exhilarating.

I got caught later that evening and perp marched to the bathroom and made to lift up my shirt. I don't even remember being embarrassed or anything. I was more mad that it was taken away from me and that I was made to sit in the corner for the rest of the evening, like a big deal was being made over nothing. But that didn't deter me, I would be hooked for life.

 

[JulestheFloof]

The alluring plump shiny comfy crinkly ruffled looks and intoxicating smell of older plastic Luvs and Pampers at age 6-7 or so.

One day I just saw them there opened somewhere, and it stopped me dead in my tracks. I looked around and saw nobody and suddenly felt a million butterflies in my tummy. Just completely randomly took me by surprise.

I snuck one under my shirt and went to the bathroom to lock the door and inspect my prize in private. I buried my face in it and inhaled that wonderful scent then nervously unbuttoned my pants and started to put it on. I remember trembling like crazy when I realized the tapes would reach the front and fit me and when I felt the bulk and leg gathers get close and snug.



It just felt so right and so wrong at the same time, it was exhilarating.

I got caught later that evening and perp marched to the bathroom and made to lift up my shirt. I don't even remember being embarrassed or anything. I was more mad that it was taken away from me and that I was made to sit in the corner for the rest of the evening, like a big deal was being made over nothing. But that didn't deter me, I would be hooked for life.

I share the exact same sentiment! Slightly different experience, but when I eventually tried to put one of the plastic backed Luvs on I snuck into my room on me instead of my plushies, my brain got hooked.

That classic powdery, unique smell crinkly plastic, padding that swells perfectly ...hell, certain packages give me that rush of nostalgia.

I babied all of my stuffed toys and took them everywhere growing up in a toy baby carrier. Parents and adults thought it was cute, but it got me into sneaking baby diapers from friend's siblings and whatnot, and that's how I got fixated.

 

[NappyLoverUK]

Just like everyone else on this thread, not really sure. I just know that the desire has been there from an early age. I love the feel of nappy wearing, combined with the risk of discovery. It makes it very exciting and comforting.

 

[depta99]

For me, the desire has been around since I can remember ... decades. However I never acted on it, considering it just a complete no-no. I had no idea of the concept of others who were DLs. Then in my 40's I was diagnosed with BPH. Not a big deal, but required me to get up multiple times per night, and my urologist also recommended a shield at night just for small amounts. Again no big deal didn't think about it much. Fast forward a few more years and I found this place. Since I am in mild need of night protection anyway and I found a welcoming community of DL's I realized why not do it for real? Now I wear day round. I get way better sleep at night as well. I just wish I had discovered this awhile ago!

 

[Raven801]

I'm not sure if I'm a DL or what honestly...I'm still confused I have struggled with kidney and bladder issues and IBS on and off through my life ...when I was younger diapers where a relief and I felt protected... And I enjoyed not having wet beds of pants ...I had several hospital stays and they generally kept me in diapers as I grew older and was in diapers off and on I realized it wasn't normal to like them and I began to feel ashamed I tried to make it to the bathroom regardless...there where periods where I would do quite well and times I didn't... Ic was something that would come and go through most my life and for the most part didn't bother me too much ...there were times I'd get frustrated and it would bother me and there were times it was quite the opposite. I found that diapers were convenient at times and such and sometimes it would spark a conflict inside me as I would start to enjoy them and it was always confusing. But I always accepted it was just part of my medical issues and accepted that... until the cruelty of my first wife .... After a botched lithotripsy and kidney surgery things went downhill fast and she made it absolutely awful. After 10 years I finally escaped her and promptly found myself in a relationship with someone who thought it was cool I wore diapers...looking back she did more for my self image and confidence than you can imagine. She often would have fun with my wearing ..she was into pee play and dom sub. .. something I hadn't experienced and she used to have me wear even when it wasn't necessary And would control what I did in them it seemed strange at the time but I liked it. Unfortunately she ended up moving a long ways away and well I didn't follow mainly because they change a lot of the meds she was in and she became kinda unstable and just a different person. I. The years that followed I have went from being comfortable wearing back to being ashamed as I dated and things got serious I'd tell them if my medical issues and it generally ended things. I guess I had a knack for ending out with people who just didn't have any empathy or whatever. Then I met my current wife and yes we have had our ruff patches in the last 12 years but she has come around and understands as she went through some ic issues after pelvic floor surgery these days she is very understanding and accepting and even takes care of me. She will even wear with me for convenience and she knows I like it and it makes me feel better. Over the years I have worn for fun and convenience and I kinda like it and I like it when my wife changes me and takes care of me... sometimes I still feel ashamed and get upset with myself but mostly I'm happy in my nappy . So I'm not sure what I am...

 

[gobphus]

For me, the desire has been around since I can remember ... decades. However I never acted on it, considering it just a complete no-no. I had no idea of the concept of others who were DLs. Then in my 40's I was diagnosed with BPH. Not a big deal, but required me to get up multiple times per night, and my urologist also recommended a shield at night just for small amounts. Again no big deal didn't think about it much. Fast forward a few more years and I found this place. Since I am in mild need of night protection anyway and I found a welcoming community of DL's I realized why not do it for real? Now I wear day round. I get way better sleep at night as well. I just wish I had discovered this awhile ago!

You’re not as late to the diaper party as you might think. Although I was a very late bedwetter growing up, I didn’t wear diapers past infancy. I was 65 when I found out about ABDL and began to wear pull-up and taped diapers. Now I wear a diaper to bed every night. Usually I wake up before wetting but not always. Do you wet in your sleep most nights?

 

[theancientmariner]

What got me started was I was around 13 or so and found some pull ups at my aunts house one day that she had for a younger cousin and I decided to try one on and liked how it felt and how I looked and I also liked how the feeling I got knowing I wasn’t supposed to be wearing them since they were for little kids. I decided after I put it on to wear it home and hide it from everyone and I thought I had it hid good enough until one day when mom came up to me and asked me about it and said she found it in my room and I got told I wasn’t supposed to wear them since they are for little kids but that didn’t stop me I would find more diapers at other relatives and take them home and try to hide them but it seemed like no matter how hard I tried to hide them mom would filed them somehow. This continued on until I moved out and got my own place when I would eventually buy my own goodnites along with some baby items like food and pacifier and a bottle.

I'm sure she knows what you're buying with your money but it matters not. You like what you like, and there's so many people just like you. I never stole diapers except on 2 occasions: once at a gas station and one from a shop that had some diapers out for her child that was there with her. I also remember having a rather large handful of baby diapers in my dresser when I was a teen, but I have no clue where I got them from. Probably stole them from my aunts house. Okay 3 times.

But one time my mom smelled my Goodnights one morning. I put one on, but didn't even wet it that much, maybe just a little, but my mom opened my door and told me to air out my room. Didn't even know what she was talking about until I smelled it myself. Wow, it was very noticeable when I left the room and came back. I threw the rest of them away in complete disgust and didn't buy anymore for a few years.

 

[depta99]

You’re not as late to the diaper party as you might think. Although I was a very late bedwetter growing up, I didn’t wear diapers past infancy. I was 65 when I found out about ABDL and began to wear pull-up and taped diapers. Now I wear a diaper to bed every night. Usually I wake up before wetting but not always. Do you wet in your sleep most nights?

Typically I awake at 3:00 a.m. and just let myself do it. There have been two nights so far when I wake up wet so I figure I must have awoke at 3:00 and just don't remember? Who knows. Sure is a relief though to be diapered. I wear plastic pants as well because it helps me trust them. Good to hear I'm not the last to arrive at this party!!

 

[theancientmariner]

Like a lot of replies here, I too was rushed out of diapers before age 3. And I also liked to watch my cousins get their diapers changed. Never stole their diapers, but just watched and saw the love and affection that the changes always had. I don't remember wearing diapers myself from when I was 2, but there's a part of me that remembers crying and screaming during my changes. I could be wrong, but I think I do remember her wiping me too hard and that's probably what it was from, idk. But I promise I don't cry during my changes anymore!

But yea, those 2 major factors probably made me an abdl at a very early age. Never stopped thinking about them, always wanted one. Just wanted to see what it was like. It wasn't until I was around 24 when I could finally buy my own diapers, and I finally had the privacy and all the time to get it right as I finally lived alone. Only time I didn't have any diapers at home was around '14 or '15 when I was broke as ever, but nowadays, I always have Rearz, Tykables, NRU, and NS diapers here along with baby diapers as boosters, powder, lotion, and duct tape for those stubborn tapes. I love H&L tapes a bit more because you can adjust them as many times as you like, and also open your diaper up and replace the booster inside and sprinkle a bit more powder on your baby parts.

Rearz Mermaid Tails are my favorite right now. Have 3 bags of them along with 2 1/2 bags of the mega Safaris, and quite the handful of Tykables and NRUs. I'll never stop wearing my diapers. I do wonder though where we'll go from here moving forward in time, with more and more babies wearing cloth backed diapers, and having a larger demand for them makes me wonder how plastic backed diapers will be of much interest to the number of growing children who have never had a plastic diaper before so they don't even know how much nicer they are. They better not stop making them.

 

[LittleAndAlone]

I share the exact same sentiment! Slightly different experience, but when I eventually tried to put one of the plastic backed Luvs on I snuck into my room on me instead of my plushies, my brain got hooked.

That classic powdery, unique smell crinkly plastic, padding that swells perfectly ...hell, certain packages give me that rush of nostalgia.

I babied all of my stuffed toys and took them everywhere growing up in a toy baby carrier. Parents and adults thought it was cute, but it got me into sneaking baby diapers from friend's siblings and whatnot, and that's how I got fixated.

I'd sneak them in my big red lego case I took everywhere. Under all the instructions and base plates.

I'd snatch them under my shirt and run to the bathroom when nobody was looking, and stash them under the sink for safe retrieval. Then before we would leave, with all my stuff in hand I say I need to use to bathroom and make the transfer. Lmao diaper smuggling. Often my entire visit world be occupied with concocting a plan and waiting for an opportunity to get them into hiding in the staging area. I couldn't think of or do anything else until then.

If I knew we were going somewhere that had diapers, especially large sizes, my heart world flutter and I would be plotting about it on the car ride over, just thinking how wonderful bed time was going to be later that night. A long torturous day.

One of my first stashes as a kid had a dozen different brands. After I was in bed Id pick one to put on and a second to hold in my hands under the covers and sniff the Luvs/Pampers scent and just be on cloud 9. I'd move very slowly to avoid making noise, and made big moves when there world be laundry running or the air coming on to mask the noises. I'd keep a candy wrapper or plastic bag near by to bail me out if anyone heard anything.

 

[gobphus]

Typically I awake at 3:00 a.m. and just let myself do it. There have been two nights so far when I wake up wet so I figure I must have awoke at 3:00 and just don't remember? Who knows. Sure is a relief though to be diapered. I wear plastic pants as well because it helps me trust them. Good to hear I'm not the last to arrive at this party!!

I've found that 3:00 AM is usually when I wake up to pee also. Plastic pants are a must if you want to keep wetting after you wake up in the morning. Also, a disposable waterproof pad is a good idea as third layer of protection of the bed.

Have you ever woken up while already wetting? That's actually my favorite way to wet, since the sensation of urinating fills my consciousness and this seems more intense. I hope to stay relaxed and just let it happen, rather than reflexively clenching.

FWIW I didn't even have the BPH diagnosis till I was 70, but it did give me the opportunity to explain to my adult children that I needed to wear protection at night.