I am IC and DL… it has been a progression over time for me… and Tim even longer to try and understand! I was a bed wetter most of my childhood, and off and on into my teens, which was frustrating and embarrassing, especially with an older brother. It just so happens, one evening when I was getting ready for bed, my diaper rubbed against my penis, and it felt kinda funny. I didn’t know what to make of it, and played around a little and it started feeling really nice. Fast forward several nights of experimenting and playing later, it felt so good I didn’t want to stop until suddenly something happened that kind of hurt but also felt really good at the same time. A few more nights of play, and a few more, what I think were dry orgasms later, and I eventually stopped thinking about it. I’m sure there were a few play nights here and there, but I still vividly remember that week!
Eventually, I mostly dried up, though I still wet the bed several times a year and sometimes during the day… I got forced into diapers on many occasions for a month or so, which I always hated, and fought. One of those nights, after getting spanked for trying to refuse a diaper, I cried myself to sleep, then woke as pee was filling my diaper. I was so mad and I wanted to tear it off, but it also felt warm and my bed wasn’t cold and wet. it kinda felt nice, and I remembered being younger, so I started playing with it and had my first full orgasm! I still hated diapers, I still was desperate to not wear, but I also had this sexual connection to it.
By the time I was a teen, I was mostly dry, but still two or three accidents a year. I didn’t need diapers, but sometimes I would see diaper commercials and get turned on, it scared me. Then i bought a computer modem and discovered I was not alone!
Fast forward to college, diapers were behind me, but one, really stressful semester, I started having accidents, unsure what to do, I bought my first depends, of course by then, anything that touches a guy turns I’m on, of course I jerked of every night until they were gone, finals are over and the bed wetting stopped.
Them I got married, but still thought about diapers once in a while, I bought a pack once and enjoyed a few, but the them away, cause I felt guilty, especially being married… tried to talk to my wife once but she is very vanilla, it turned her straight off.
Next thing I know, I’m 28, and I started wetting the bed out of no where, I did have an accident every year or two, but this time it started happening every couple nights. My wife hated the idea of me wearing a diaper to bed, but hated waking up wet because of me even more. So, after years of not touching diapers I bought some depends. Admittedly, I almost had an O just putting that first one on, and did of course finish myself off before the night was over… but after time of wearing out of bed instead of pleasure, that thrill does certainly leave. At this point, I’d love to not need them anymore, I’ve tried many things over the years, doctors haven’t helped much and while meds make it less frequent it never went away, so here I am, I need diapers, while I hate that I need them, I also somehow like them… I still occasionally get turned on putting one on. On a lucky night, when I’m feeling frisky and she’s not, she’ll even occasionally bring me to o while wearing, no mess
That’s my story, the odd relationship of a frustrating need turning into accidental orgasm.
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-- temporarily returning some agency (choice) for whether a diaper will be needed or not.
