I'm compete IC and have been since the beginning. I suppose I've gotten used to having a wet and messy diaper whether I'm awake or sleeping and getting up. Have you ever woke up in the morning and found that I had a dry or clean diaper? When I get up I'm always wet. I can say that I've never had a dry diaper in the morning. As for having a clean diaper (wet but not messy) I have at least 3 or 4 times per week. Having a BM accident while sleeping is "challenging" when I get up. It's like a victory when I realize my diaper is just wet. Cleaning up always make me feel like I've won. Just getting up, taking off the wet diaper and jumping into the shower, it cuts my morning time in half. On the other hand, a loaded diaper takes more time beside the mental struggle that hits me that morning. I do admit that I have been better with it over the years. But it's still a struggle. Do you feel like I do? Is it like victory or defeat?