diaper shame discussion

[nwm]

embarrassed about having to buy them in my 20s again

The whole time II only recall one incident there that came close, and even that so what (mostly) - store was fairly empty - 2 cashiers working (obviously in their teens) I know the one that took my money had no cue what they even where because I heard her say so to the other one. I guess that one told her softly because about 2 seconds later I heard both of them giggling.
Really felt like going back ans saying something - but never did. And had seen both of them a few times shortly after that, no comment or reaction at all so...
But that was ONE time (I was in my 20s at that time) out of countless numbers so...

 

[GoodnitesXL21]

I used to have some shame/anxiety over wearing when I was younger. Especially when I was a teen.
I did and still do think of diapers as just a really awesome and comfy type of underwear. The problem was that back then sometimes after wetting I would get aroused and couldn't help it and would end up masturbating in my Goodnites even though I didn't want to. Right after I'd feel crappy and wanted NOTHING to do with diapers, and sometimes would throw partial packs of diapers out when this happened too.

Over the years I've really thought about why and what it is about Diapers that I like, and am fine with it. Finding super comfy and great fitting diapers that I can trust 100% has made a big difference also. I've been 24/7 most of this whole year and have been loving it! The more I've been wearing the better it's been.

I still won't go telling people about it though, but I personally don't have a problem with being in and using my "original underwear" for it's intended purpose anymore.

 

[goodnites24]

As a trans woman I used to be very shameful of my diaper lover side even though it was never sexual. For a while I stopped and tried to hide that part of me from myself. After I came out as trans and really got to thinking about my mental health I realized that diapers are the only coping mechanism I had that didn’t hurt me. I feel that I’m trying to make up for time that I lost before I knew I was trans.

 

[Deleted member 59603]

Despite knowing that I need them, I think I will always feel ashamed of wearing and using diapers as an adult. Wearing diapers is one thing, but needing them and using them no matter what situation you’re in is a totally different issue.

 

[Napincolove]

Like a lot of others here I too underwent the binge and purge sessions many a time and back in my younger days I felt real shame perhaps even disgust on a few occasions as I thought I was a real freak and would probably qualify for a mental institution
I do remember the "dirty mags" being passed around at work and reading one I suddenly discovered I was not alone in my love for wearing Nappies, one writer said " I am a six foot six rugby player happily married with two teenagers and when they were babies I got very jealous changing their Nappies as all I want to do is wear Nappies and wet in them, am I weird ?
I kept that page for many years !

Having had a small bladder on a very short fuse for so many years I always thought it would be a much easier if I just wore a Nappy but in reality it was not going to happen and I just struggled on until around 40 things got much more urgent so I saw a doctor who reffered me and had all the tests resulting in a diagnosis.
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But to start with when the wife bought me some reuseable pads and plastic pants I felt scared wearing my hearts desire, not long afterwards my problems increased and my wife organised a chat with a "continence advisor" who made it very clear Nappies were an absolute no no and she was horrible, I swore I would never go back, however things got worse as I had a condom Cath and had nothing but infection after infection, it got so bad doc sent me back to the "continence advisor" and reluctantly I went back to find a marvellous new lady running the show, we had a very frank discussion and she offered me some Nappies to try out, in the end after many meetings with her it was agreed that I would use disposable Nappies and initially I felt a little shamefull and always worried about being "discovered" wearing my Nappies.

Well nowadays I have no shame only need and love things the way they are, me in a disposable and plastic pants 24/7/365 etc
Also I have learnt to just plain not worry about wearing Nappies or being discovered as it is who I am.