AngelofConfusion
Est. Contributor
- Messages
- 33
- Role
- Adult Baby
- Other
so I wanted to put down how I realised I was an ABDL
All my life I'd done weird things (or things I thought were weird or not the social norm) I was constantly scared I'd get in trouble or get bullied at school, so I denied It all and tried to forget every time something like that happened. however occasionally "that" side of me would surface.
So one week when it happened I was lying in bed, on a day off. couldn't get back to sleep so I just thought about stuff. And suddenly, it was like every memory I'd tried so hard to forget, just flashed through my mind. the memory of trying to make a pretend diaper out of blankets and celotape for one example
It was like God had just shone a torch into my mind
Literally the closest time I have ever been to believing in the more spiritual side of things. all the self-deceptions the little lies I told myself, were laid out before me. It felt like I was looking at my whole life and left with the decision, Acknowledge this fact, or continue denying that part of my life
I chose to acknowledge it, wouldn't be writing this otherwise, ironically it's discovering I have this interest that has spurred me to take an interest in being more self reliant.
So how did you guys realize you were an ABDL/Whatever? did you guys know from the start or only realize later?
All my life I'd done weird things (or things I thought were weird or not the social norm) I was constantly scared I'd get in trouble or get bullied at school, so I denied It all and tried to forget every time something like that happened. however occasionally "that" side of me would surface.
So one week when it happened I was lying in bed, on a day off. couldn't get back to sleep so I just thought about stuff. And suddenly, it was like every memory I'd tried so hard to forget, just flashed through my mind. the memory of trying to make a pretend diaper out of blankets and celotape for one example
It was like God had just shone a torch into my mind
Literally the closest time I have ever been to believing in the more spiritual side of things. all the self-deceptions the little lies I told myself, were laid out before me. It felt like I was looking at my whole life and left with the decision, Acknowledge this fact, or continue denying that part of my life
I chose to acknowledge it, wouldn't be writing this otherwise, ironically it's discovering I have this interest that has spurred me to take an interest in being more self reliant.
So how did you guys realize you were an ABDL/Whatever? did you guys know from the start or only realize later?