Reaper
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My love of diapers kind of gets more and more serious every day. At home I go about my adult duties with a diaper on and a pacifier in and I'm as happy as can be. I do just about everything 'cept shower and exercise while wearing a diaper at home.
My day goes south when I take my diaper off and leave the house. I don't feel necessarily terrible throughout my day, but towards the end of the day it's like a mad dash to the finish so I can reunite with my diapers.
I've tried wearing them in public and taking discreet measures (thinner diapers, cloth backed, pull ups, etc.) But there's no negating the small heart attacks that come as I go about my day. I'm about 90% sure people have seen me in diapers and their interaction has never changed. I can use all the rational statements/equalizers I want. I'm still plagued by panic when I wear them.
My issue is that I'm in a very unhappy limbo where I know the diapers will win. I'm sure I'll spend more time on my own if it meant I could wear diapers in peace and not worry about the bulge or peeking waistband. Even if I am not "showing", and even though I'm nearly 100% certain nobody even cares, the anxiety is still there. By the same notion, life isn't the "same" without a diaper on under my jeans.
I don't want to cheat myself out of life by prioritizing my diapers, but at the same time, simply omitting them or setting them aside isn't a feasible option either. I'll want to wrap up my schedule prematurely just to head home and put them on again.
As absurd as this sounds, is there a way to overcome this "diaper anxiety"? Are there things you did to help yourself through a phase such as this? Thank you.
My day goes south when I take my diaper off and leave the house. I don't feel necessarily terrible throughout my day, but towards the end of the day it's like a mad dash to the finish so I can reunite with my diapers.
I've tried wearing them in public and taking discreet measures (thinner diapers, cloth backed, pull ups, etc.) But there's no negating the small heart attacks that come as I go about my day. I'm about 90% sure people have seen me in diapers and their interaction has never changed. I can use all the rational statements/equalizers I want. I'm still plagued by panic when I wear them.
My issue is that I'm in a very unhappy limbo where I know the diapers will win. I'm sure I'll spend more time on my own if it meant I could wear diapers in peace and not worry about the bulge or peeking waistband. Even if I am not "showing", and even though I'm nearly 100% certain nobody even cares, the anxiety is still there. By the same notion, life isn't the "same" without a diaper on under my jeans.
I don't want to cheat myself out of life by prioritizing my diapers, but at the same time, simply omitting them or setting them aside isn't a feasible option either. I'll want to wrap up my schedule prematurely just to head home and put them on again.
As absurd as this sounds, is there a way to overcome this "diaper anxiety"? Are there things you did to help yourself through a phase such as this? Thank you.
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