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OK...so yeah. On Thursday I got exceedingly drunk and ended up texting my friend who is across the world that I'm a DL. I'm actually not ashamed that I "came out" to him as a DL because we've been friends for almost 10yrs now. So I was going to tell him anyway at some point.
My problem is...that in my drunkenness I made an attempt to justify my being DL. I lied to him. I made up a story about how I was a bedwetter into my late teens and spent my childhood wearing diapers to bed. And then as an adult, found myself wanting to relive those times. I made it sound like my being a DL is a psychological thing.
So I mixed the truth with a huge lie....except he doesn't know I lied. For all he knows, I was a chronic bedwetter and it has affected my life. But I wasn't a bedwetter. I told him that in order to make myself not sound like a creep.
But it's been tearing me apart. I've been so stressed, full of anxiety and making myself sick because I lied to this person. If I'd have just left it at being DL, it would've been fine. But I took it to another level and added the lie.
As of now....I have no idea what he thinks of me as a DL, much less the lie that I am a former bedwetter. I just don't know what to do. Should I move on if he accepts me as a DL? Should I confess my lie or just continue on with him believing my fake past? I'm freaking out so bad right now I don't know what to do
My problem is...that in my drunkenness I made an attempt to justify my being DL. I lied to him. I made up a story about how I was a bedwetter into my late teens and spent my childhood wearing diapers to bed. And then as an adult, found myself wanting to relive those times. I made it sound like my being a DL is a psychological thing.
So I mixed the truth with a huge lie....except he doesn't know I lied. For all he knows, I was a chronic bedwetter and it has affected my life. But I wasn't a bedwetter. I told him that in order to make myself not sound like a creep.
But it's been tearing me apart. I've been so stressed, full of anxiety and making myself sick because I lied to this person. If I'd have just left it at being DL, it would've been fine. But I took it to another level and added the lie.
As of now....I have no idea what he thinks of me as a DL, much less the lie that I am a former bedwetter. I just don't know what to do. Should I move on if he accepts me as a DL? Should I confess my lie or just continue on with him believing my fake past? I'm freaking out so bad right now I don't know what to do