Hi Everybody,
I call myself Isaac as a result of a new fascination with Abraham and Isaac as well as several other Biblical scenes. I'm very new here and was nervous about writing my first post, but this thread really spoke to me and the reasons why I'm here. I feel, that for a variety of reasons I have been forced to "start over," as a person and a personality in life. This has happened to me several times and most recently the triggers and influences I received from other individuals and the outside world that made this a necessity happened about two years ago. It's a been a struggle and a trial. I feel like my entire Ego and Identity has died and I'm a completely "blank slate" in a terrifying, and unexpected way. That said, there are certain "parts of me" that remain. One is my persistent and life-long fantasy with Age-Play, my own younger days, and certain relationships in my life that for me, have activated those fantasies. What I'm trying to say is that one area of my life that is still "open to me" is comprised of these fantasies. It is almost like my regression tendencies can be more easily accessed and take on a greater degree of meaning because the "rest of my life" isn't interfering. I do want to say that these fantasies mostly exist in my head. When I've approached my partners about them I've gotten an interesting response - some feedback and participation, but not enough to make a truly meaningful exchange. So I feel I have a tremendous opportunity to delve into these feelings now, as a "pure form" of "identity construct" and "reconstruction" and create an authentic experience as a young, young, one which represents a deep definition of "who I am," in absence of other constructs and social cues. I hope this is an adequate response to the posted topic! I sometimes stray from "home!"
