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Hello little and big friends,
Just wanted to ask a few questions as to how you guys would answer this or respond if this were you... I've recently opened up to my partner about my diaper-wearing and my little side...and he gets it, I feel he really does. He validates me and listens to my perspective and asks questions. He understands that I like to be babied, and I like to wear diapers.... but he doesn't understand why I like to.......go in my pants...
Of all the things I feel like I have been able to answer, this one had me personally stumped on a philosophical level... Why do I like to pee in my diapers? What exactly is so satisfying about feeling myself let go of a stinky load right into my pants?
Okay yeah, of course babies are little and they can't tell when they have to go, so it's definitely a regression trigger ( I'd like to tell myself it was accident ) but I'm wondering what exactly attracts people to wetting and messing themselves on a psychological level... is it a grounding activity? Is it nurturing to the emotional intelligence? does it release environmental stressors?
What do you notice about your emotional state of being before, during, and after you mess or wet yourself?
I remember I had managed to open up with my partner one morning about having wet in my pants, and he was immediately put off ( I know, bad move! I just wanted validated for letting go of things!..)
He didn't understand just why I would do that...in my pants.
Well...
For me... the whole urge thing is a big deal... it's quite vulnerable and allowing myself to mess or wet is very vulnerable.. especially around others... It allows me to realize I have pressure somewhere that needs released, beckoning me to release it. And with letting go of the pressure, it has a very relaxing and slightly stimulating effect, similar to meditation I suppose. I feel centered, present, and ....happy that I allowed myself to let go, entirely. For somebody with extreme anxiety and edginess... letting go is a big deal!!
Messing is more of a attention-grabber for me than wetting. Wetting is a calming and relaxing sensation, whereas messing... is a little bit different. Messing for me is a lot more urgent and intense, it creates a reasonable amount of fear and/or excitement....
I was never entirely sure if I should do what always happened...
The feeling of my belly button making those gurgling noises and my tummy contracting in unison. My messy insides squelching as pressure pushes hard into my back end. It's like an uncomfortable time at a shitty lake with your uncle and you just want to go home.
Allowing the uneasy feeling to build up, come to a point of intensity, and going through the process of opening up, to be okay with letting go of all that is holding me back... and having a safe place to do so is a very releasing and centering feeling... I'm always uneasy about everything it seems and maybe starting here, learning to let go of things here, can help me see other things differently.
The feeling of itself is an act of God, similar to the bursting of a leaky dam or when it finally rains in the desert.... And knowing... truly knowing... there is a safe place to release these feelings.... Simply knowing I am okay to let go here... is one of the most warming, safe and liberating feelings I've ever known to experience... I guess being a baby makes it okay to have this experience, okay to have the emotions I wish I didn't have... it helps me integrate all that I don't feel I received...
And validation for these things is sooooo special... I cannot explain it's importance in littlespace.
Sometimes being told I'm a good baby for filling my pants up is exactly what I need to release the shame I still deal with.. I know I like my messy pants... I hope he can learn to understand why. In time I'm sure he will get the message.
All in all, I feel that this part of my regression is such an important factor it cannot be ignored.... (literally!) It puts me in a space no other things can do. Drugs, alcohol, sex... nothing compares to this feeling of vulnerability and sensitivity...
This is something unique i feel that is for unique people... Only those who are deeply layered in love and understanding will get this...
Just wanted to ask a few questions as to how you guys would answer this or respond if this were you... I've recently opened up to my partner about my diaper-wearing and my little side...and he gets it, I feel he really does. He validates me and listens to my perspective and asks questions. He understands that I like to be babied, and I like to wear diapers.... but he doesn't understand why I like to.......go in my pants...
Of all the things I feel like I have been able to answer, this one had me personally stumped on a philosophical level... Why do I like to pee in my diapers? What exactly is so satisfying about feeling myself let go of a stinky load right into my pants?
Okay yeah, of course babies are little and they can't tell when they have to go, so it's definitely a regression trigger ( I'd like to tell myself it was accident ) but I'm wondering what exactly attracts people to wetting and messing themselves on a psychological level... is it a grounding activity? Is it nurturing to the emotional intelligence? does it release environmental stressors?
What do you notice about your emotional state of being before, during, and after you mess or wet yourself?
I remember I had managed to open up with my partner one morning about having wet in my pants, and he was immediately put off ( I know, bad move! I just wanted validated for letting go of things!..)
He didn't understand just why I would do that...in my pants.
Well...
For me... the whole urge thing is a big deal... it's quite vulnerable and allowing myself to mess or wet is very vulnerable.. especially around others... It allows me to realize I have pressure somewhere that needs released, beckoning me to release it. And with letting go of the pressure, it has a very relaxing and slightly stimulating effect, similar to meditation I suppose. I feel centered, present, and ....happy that I allowed myself to let go, entirely. For somebody with extreme anxiety and edginess... letting go is a big deal!!
Messing is more of a attention-grabber for me than wetting. Wetting is a calming and relaxing sensation, whereas messing... is a little bit different. Messing for me is a lot more urgent and intense, it creates a reasonable amount of fear and/or excitement....
I was never entirely sure if I should do what always happened...
The feeling of my belly button making those gurgling noises and my tummy contracting in unison. My messy insides squelching as pressure pushes hard into my back end. It's like an uncomfortable time at a shitty lake with your uncle and you just want to go home.
Allowing the uneasy feeling to build up, come to a point of intensity, and going through the process of opening up, to be okay with letting go of all that is holding me back... and having a safe place to do so is a very releasing and centering feeling... I'm always uneasy about everything it seems and maybe starting here, learning to let go of things here, can help me see other things differently.
The feeling of itself is an act of God, similar to the bursting of a leaky dam or when it finally rains in the desert.... And knowing... truly knowing... there is a safe place to release these feelings.... Simply knowing I am okay to let go here... is one of the most warming, safe and liberating feelings I've ever known to experience... I guess being a baby makes it okay to have this experience, okay to have the emotions I wish I didn't have... it helps me integrate all that I don't feel I received...
And validation for these things is sooooo special... I cannot explain it's importance in littlespace.
Sometimes being told I'm a good baby for filling my pants up is exactly what I need to release the shame I still deal with.. I know I like my messy pants... I hope he can learn to understand why. In time I'm sure he will get the message.
All in all, I feel that this part of my regression is such an important factor it cannot be ignored.... (literally!) It puts me in a space no other things can do. Drugs, alcohol, sex... nothing compares to this feeling of vulnerability and sensitivity...
This is something unique i feel that is for unique people... Only those who are deeply layered in love and understanding will get this...