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@KBoy, hurting people has never been my goal and is also the reason I refuse to go to the ER anymore, but that leaves me in a bad place at times. I don't have a good answer on how to proceed with this issue though. I have no idea HOW I managed to get out of the ER the last time I was there without hammering on someone and I don't have any real memory of leaving there, either. That's a scary thing as my memory is almost always impeccable! I know I was far beyond livid from the instant the Dr. go in my face "yelling" at me that they don't care who advocates on my behalf, they don't treat headaches there. I did not want to go to the ER that day, my Pain Management Dr. did everything short of physically force me to do so. I love my Pain Management "team" as they've truly done what they can to take care of me even though they're doing this with one hand tied behind their back thanks to people who don't have a single day's worth of medical training making decisions for them. This is what I mean by the gov't and their "Opiate Crusade". My non-VA PCP wants OUT of the business of being a Dr. as he despises being told "HOW" to do his job and this is one of 2 Dr's I have that I am about as certain as one can be that I wouldn't be here today without him.
Anyway, my intent is never to get entangled within the nightmare of lashing out (physically) at anyone can lead to but I am truly afraid of what may happen if pushed too far past my breaking point by someone being a self righteous prick. Not being able to recall leaving the VA ER the last time tells me that mentally, I was already there and again, no clue HOW I managed to restrain myself.
CptKirk
PS AWESOME to hear that your wife beat breast cancer! Glad to hear that.
KBoy said:@CptKirk I am sorry for your troubles and you are not wrong or alone, dealing with doctors, RXs, and, of course the VA can be a trial by fire.
Believe me when I tell you, my wife has been in a battle with breast cancer that has changed the very way I look at life.
I, in no way, want to offer you advice, only support. I have read your posts here and many of your complaints are over situations that I have experienced first hand. Going through multiple surgeries is a huge burden and to compound it with lack of medication and to then have to navigate the medical and insurance nightmare can become almost completely entirely intolerant.
I said I wasn't going to give advice but "Please don't hurt anyone" I say this because they have really tried my patience, they also saved my wife's life.
Hang in there Captain, I know you are a strong person. Good will prevail, and things will get better.
@KBoy, hurting people has never been my goal and is also the reason I refuse to go to the ER anymore, but that leaves me in a bad place at times. I don't have a good answer on how to proceed with this issue though. I have no idea HOW I managed to get out of the ER the last time I was there without hammering on someone and I don't have any real memory of leaving there, either. That's a scary thing as my memory is almost always impeccable! I know I was far beyond livid from the instant the Dr. go in my face "yelling" at me that they don't care who advocates on my behalf, they don't treat headaches there. I did not want to go to the ER that day, my Pain Management Dr. did everything short of physically force me to do so. I love my Pain Management "team" as they've truly done what they can to take care of me even though they're doing this with one hand tied behind their back thanks to people who don't have a single day's worth of medical training making decisions for them. This is what I mean by the gov't and their "Opiate Crusade". My non-VA PCP wants OUT of the business of being a Dr. as he despises being told "HOW" to do his job and this is one of 2 Dr's I have that I am about as certain as one can be that I wouldn't be here today without him.
Anyway, my intent is never to get entangled within the nightmare of lashing out (physically) at anyone can lead to but I am truly afraid of what may happen if pushed too far past my breaking point by someone being a self righteous prick. Not being able to recall leaving the VA ER the last time tells me that mentally, I was already there and again, no clue HOW I managed to restrain myself.
CptKirk
PS AWESOME to hear that your wife beat breast cancer! Glad to hear that.