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You speak out of my heart. The little side is me, aswell as my adult being and all challenges and responsibilities of my life.blissfullyquirky said:And it continues with this quote from a study participant:
I wouldn't. At times in the past I thought I might, but I realize now no, I wouldn't get rid of it. I think that speaks to how ingrained the adult baby is in me. I try to imagine myself without the baby, without the diapers, and I just can't. Or if I do I don't recognize that person as me. I don't know who I would be without my little side, but I wouldn't be myself.
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to wake up one day and get rid of all my baby stuff, not another purge, but because I just don't have a desire to use any of it anymore, and that scares me. The only thing that scares me more than the thought of people finding out I'm an adult baby is the thought of not being one anymore.
And if it is some dissoziative in it, its more thqn common if you look at the life of others. And sometimes you have to juggle. But if you accept, you will find another source of being who you are.
And yeah in my life sometimes Ben is a big challenge not only while working and having stress - because you have to manage your time and didnt have two days in one for being adult me and baby me at once. But i never could imagine, what it would be like without this beautiful and wonderful side of me.
Yeah i have to hide and yeah much often and yeah sometimes i would indulge more and it feels like a curse - but mire than that it feels like a wonder when i get in balance being me with being Ben.
Sorry - sometimes i am in writing mood