When did you first find out that you weren't the only one who liked wearing diapers?

[chriss]

I was twelve I believe, I use to wet my pants all the time and hid my wet underwears beneath my bed. It used to annoy the hell out of my parents all the time, they tought that I was incontinent and that I could not hold my bladder. They actually called a doctor to examine me, he did not find anything wrong medically speaking. I actually did it on purpose and I secretly wished that I could wear diapers again like a baby. I did not fully understand this feeling when I was younger, it just felt good so I did it. I did not know then that other people could feel the same way.

I thought for a very long time that I was the only one who felt that way about wetting and diapers. Then one day when I was twelve I went to the countryside to visit my aunt and uncle. I snooped around in their bedchamber and under the bed I found a bunch of porn Dvds. One in particular featured women wearing diapers and wetting their panties.

I was shocked to say the least, I felt like I was struck by lighting, my legs were shaking, Its a very hard feelin to describe.

I discovered that I was not alone, that I was not so abnormal, that other people did as I did.

About a year later I received my fist computer and I discovered this fetish in more details thanks to the Internet.

 

[ParkABDL]

A lot of people have responded to this already, but I would like to propose as part of the question not just, "When did you find out you are not the only one who likes to wear diapers?', but "What did it mean to you when you found out you were not the only one who wears diapers?"

Again, quite a few members actually have shared this in the response, but this question gets at the deeper question of what it meant to you when you realized you weren't the only one? :detective3

Not trying to threadjack ParkABDL's thread, but for me this is the greater benefit of answering this question. :hug:

I do think that this addition would make the question much more interesting and personal to repliers.

To give my "What" feeling, when I first figured out, I felt an automatic sense of connection to that person. I went on a frenzy to find communities and stores and everything in between. As a kid, in desperation, I purposely wet the bed in order to receive diapers, and I ended up in Depends Pull-ups. This caused some embarrassment, so I stopped wetting... but found I physically couldn't stop until I was around 15... a sophomore in high school. This caused me some embarrassment, and I went into an enormous "purge" cycle where I completely suppressed any and all ABDL thoughts and feelings that went into my mind. But, around the age of 17 (a senior in high school) I went into the binge cycle, being bombarded with ABDL feelings until I did a web search... and found I was apart of a community.

The feeling that you're a part of a community that shares the same thoughts and feelings that you tried to repress for so long is amazing, almost hypnotic in nature. The first time I ever heard the term ABDL was when I found my place on this planet.

So, how about you, TeddyBearCowboy, when did you get the chance of feeling the same experience for yourself, and what exactly did you feel? Although I realize that you may have already posted this somewhere else, I'd like to see your response on this thread since you're such an amazing writer.

 

[dlore2177]

When I found online communities about the topic shortly after leaving home. I had spent years going through binge and purge cycles as I'd sneak out driving to neighboring towns to fill the need and then feeling so dirty afterwards so I would toss all the extra supplies. Boy were those the expensive years.

 

[VallenTheFireFox]

Well, I found out when I was 17, it was a HUGE relief, because I thought I was an extreme freak or something, I was scared of my desires, I found out about AB/DL by accident searching through deviant art, I stumbled onto some babyfur pictures and I've been a babyfur ever since

 

[plasticsounds]

Being a bit older, I didn't really discover others until 1996 (in my twenties). I didn't feel relieved, I was excited! I could now buy the things I could only dream about.

 

[43goofball43]

I first learned that I wasn't alone in my desires was when I was at my friends house for a visit and he was reading a Playboy magazine. He asked if I had ever read any of them, I said no I didn't know about them. He gave me one to start reading and I believe that one of the first articles I read was about a guy who was trying to find a girl who was also into diaper wearing. After that I was hooked on Playboy and the articles and almost every time there was a story of men wearing diapers. I was in 7th heaven.