Stargazer93
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Sorry mods if this is the wrong spot to post this, but here we go.
Today was a special day. I truly like this current psychologist I am working with. It took SOOOO many years and failed other therapists, but I think this one actually can help.
He is the one that diagnosed the autism, so he is in the unique position to understand my full picture. He also sub-specializes in PTSD and neglect, so I feel in good hands.
So I was dancing around the full truth of AB with him for a few weeks, but today I showed him the diapers, the pacifier, the baby food and the bottle. Once again, another healthcare provider who never heard the term Paraphilic infantilism, or the full aspects of AB. He was like "in 30 years of practice, you are the very first person that I've treated with this"
At this point in my life I was just like "yeah cool, ok let's get to work"
Of course he looked at me with eyes of bewilderment for like 15 mins as I laid it out for him, but then we started to really talk about it. The shock on his face was priceless, but its all good. I felt actually listened to and understood by someone outside our community for the first time ever.
AB has brought me a lot of support and comfort over the course of my life, so I will always appreciate that, but I swear I can not control it and it owns me rather then me consenting to engaging in it. So I would like to make some progress with it.
I've done so before, but I can't do it alone anymore and now I finally have someone else in my corner, besides everyone here of course.
This is also a good time to express to everyone here how much I appreciate your support and having this site available to come to. I felt so alone in this my whole life and now I have a community of support. So I will be forever grateful.
I'm feeling very hopeful today, So I just wanted to share that with everyone.
Today was a special day. I truly like this current psychologist I am working with. It took SOOOO many years and failed other therapists, but I think this one actually can help.
He is the one that diagnosed the autism, so he is in the unique position to understand my full picture. He also sub-specializes in PTSD and neglect, so I feel in good hands.
So I was dancing around the full truth of AB with him for a few weeks, but today I showed him the diapers, the pacifier, the baby food and the bottle. Once again, another healthcare provider who never heard the term Paraphilic infantilism, or the full aspects of AB. He was like "in 30 years of practice, you are the very first person that I've treated with this"
At this point in my life I was just like "yeah cool, ok let's get to work"
Of course he looked at me with eyes of bewilderment for like 15 mins as I laid it out for him, but then we started to really talk about it. The shock on his face was priceless, but its all good. I felt actually listened to and understood by someone outside our community for the first time ever.
AB has brought me a lot of support and comfort over the course of my life, so I will always appreciate that, but I swear I can not control it and it owns me rather then me consenting to engaging in it. So I would like to make some progress with it.
I've done so before, but I can't do it alone anymore and now I finally have someone else in my corner, besides everyone here of course.
This is also a good time to express to everyone here how much I appreciate your support and having this site available to come to. I felt so alone in this my whole life and now I have a community of support. So I will be forever grateful.
I'm feeling very hopeful today, So I just wanted to share that with everyone.