The worst actual thing that happened with ABDL

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Well i f**ked up my aunt had a person out to give a generator estimate and i left eveything out in the open on my side of the basement.

My aunt and grandmother found a slip once for medical diapers and i just spilled the beens. Told them it was a fedish brought on by childhood trauma which it is.

Thers a chance the tech didnt go on my side but i wasn't there the thought is eating me alive.

Normay i box it all up and stack it up next to my bed in the unmarked boxes 📦

Honestly the worst thing is ill never know and i struggle with high anxiety so this is killing me.

I wanted to confind in my sister and we were talking and she was like what are you a furry half joking. me in my head know but there is a crosover. And if a fury got a chuckle well ABDL would be an atomic bomb.

My sister has kids id throw myself on the flames for last thing id need is her thinking im not safe with kids which we all know there is a stigma with this fedish which is mosty untrue.

I say mosty untrue because there is always one rotten apple whitch is a bad analogy becuse the apple will grow another tree. There sadly is evil in this world and people judge without looking into the facts

Long story short
im tired of hiding this
Im anxious
Andn i wnt to confind in someone i know and trus
But im afrade to rool the dice
 
I'm sorry this happened to you. I hope you can find someone you can trust to share with. For me I am blessed to have a pastor who is also a close friend. He was the one person I was most worried about what he would think. But it finally came up when he could tell I was hiding something and would not let it go until I told him. It turns out it was not as bad as I feared, and we had a good laugh about it. Now it doesn't matter as much what anyone else thinks if they find out.
I know it is scary but it takes so much fear and worry away when we share are deepest secrets with the right person. Praying for you.
 
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Worst actual thing?

The absolute worst for me, as in anxiety inducing and felt like my world was ending, was bad. My first wife was supportive and involved in my AB side.
My brother was working as a trucker, and kept drinking and driving while doing it. Of course he was caught (thankfully before he killed someone, though he would years later kill a woman while drunk driving his own vehicle and is now in prison for a long time), and my first wife and i went to mississippi to bail him out and bring him home. I guess they hit it off, she left me for him, and she threatened to tell everyone i knew, she knew, anyone who would listen, about everything related to my ab side and would show pictures, if i didnt give her everything i owned in the divorce. I own my part of it, i knew this woman was predatory from friends having bad experiences but the allure of a "mommy-wife" was too much to resist after years of loneliness, so i ignored all the warnings and good advice from friends.
She didnt expose me, i got in touch with a lawyer and the prosecutors office (revenge porn, not to mention she had some photos of me underage when i was into ab/dl) and made it clear to her i would make sure she learned the definition of ruining someones life if she did anything that she threatened.
i had to leave the state we were living in, for my own mental health, and didnt return or speak to most people i knew at the time for about 6 years. I was homeless mlst of that time.

Im sure shes told people, but our friend circles are vastly different by now, and she did a good job detroying her own life and credibility. My brother and i dont speak, for that and a lot of other reasons.

Edit: I've only ever told that story to one person, my current wife. It's a bit surreal reading it and being able to see it so matter of factly. Typing it out like that gave me some closure, i think. Thank you for thread and i'm sorry you experienced that, real or percieved exposure of this side of us can be terrifying, especially when you struggle with anxiety. Take comfort in knowing that tech doesnt know you, likely didnt care ir even understand what he might have seen, and keep your hopes up that you'll have irl people you can really confide in one day.
 
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Worst actual thing?

The absolute worst for me, as in anxiety inducing and felt like my world was ending, was bad. My first wife was supportive and involved in my AB side.
My brother was working as a trucker, and kept drinking and driving while doing it. Of course he was caught (thankfully before he killed someone, though he would years later kill a woman while drunk driving his own vehicle and is now in prison for a long time), and my first wife and i went to mississippi to bail him out and bring him home. I guess they hit it off, she left me for him, and she threatened to tell everyone i knew, she knew, anyone who would listen, about everything related to my ab side and would show pictures, if i didnt give her everything i owned in the divorce. I own my part of it, i knew this woman was predatory from friends having bad experiences but the allure of a "mommy-wife" was too much to resist after years of loneliness, so i ignored all the warnings and good advice from friends.
She didnt expose me, i got in touch with a lawyer and the prosecutors office (revenge porn, not to mention she had some photos of me underage when i was into ab/dl) and made it clear to her i would make sure she learned the definition of ruining someones life if she did anything that she threatened.
i had to leave the state we were living in, for my own mental health, and didnt return or speak to most people i knew at the time for about 6 years. I was homeless mlst of that time.

Im sure shes told people, but our friend circles are vastly different by now, and she did a good job detroying her own life and credibility. My brother and i dont speak, for that and a lot of other reasons.

Edit: I've only ever told that story to one person, my current wife. It's a bit surreal reading it and being able to see it so matter of factly. Typing it out like that gave me some closure, i think. Thank you for thread and i'mfind sorry you experienced that, real or percieved exposure of this side of us can be terrifying, especially when you struggle with anxiety. Take comfort in knowing that tech doesnt know you, likely didnt care ir even understand what he might have seen, and keep your hopes up that you'll have irl people you can really confide in one day.
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I’m so sorry you had to go through all of that. Glad you were able to find some closure .
 
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