My mom isn't some bully, she has come a long ways. She has given me pull ups before when they were given to her because they didn't fit and she got me footed sleepers for Christmas and she got me a large size to make room for my diapers so I feel comfortable in my new pajamas and she says sorry when she thinks she has embarrassed me. It's hard for me to believe she is still trying to embarrass me or shame me to quit when she had already told me before it's part of who I am and has given me that other stuff. All that shit she has said before was all in the past when she didn't accept it and had a hard time with it. I don't know if she still doesn't like it. It's not like I can kick her out because she owns the house too and is she leaves, my husband and I would end up leaving too because we wouldn't be able to afford living here anymore and I don't think my Dad makes enough to even afford this place either.
This is still an awkward topic between us because she has expressed her hate towards it and her disgust and how it makes her want to throw up and how she loathes it and making comments like "You're wearing a diaper, yuck" "Oh Beth." and the time she got mad at me for messing myself when I was sick and the time she thought I messed myself when we smelled cow manure while coming home from our day out so this part has destroyed this part of our relationship but this is supposed to be private anyway, not talked about. But sadly she would have to rely on the internet if she wants to read on this than asking me. I have a hard time being open about it due to the damage she has caused. She admits she doesn't understand it and said once if she went somewhere where everyone wore diapers, they might think she is strange for not wearing them and find it sick she holds it and uses the toilet. Actually someone had written a story here about it but I don't know if it's still on here or moved to the private section. I can remember all the stories being moved to a board and only authors could see their own when Moo changed the story policy here. I believe they were all under for review to see if they are still appropriate for this board.
Showing her my diaper just to teach her a lesson won't work because she has no problem seeing me in one but I still don't flaunt it. But it would be ironic if she needed them when she is old and it would be my turn to make comments about it, especially while changing her. It would be pay back. I think she has finally realized it's not going to go away and I am not going to quit. I've told her it's my lifestyle. She even offered to get rid of my panties once when we were organizing the garage and putting stuff in the charity pile and she saw my underwear and said "Do you want me to put these in the charity pile?" I had them all in a plastic bag a bedding came in and I used it to store my underwear in because I wasn't using them. She has gone back and forth to acting accepting and then to not liking it so it has been confusing for me.
That made me laugh too! Good one Dogboy!