ThatGuyFromThatThread
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I was on S.S.R.I.s, on and off, every year from 9 to 17. They never helped but people would say "I can see so much improvement!" I'd let them know that I hadn't been taking them, so the same people would say "Oh, that's why you're getting worse." You just said there was so much improvement! They're basically a side-effect-filled placebo that works on teachers, rather than those forced to take them.
I had headaches or even migraines, along with bedwetting. On one, it was pants wetting. My mom proposed "diapers", during the day, when I was 13, which I honestly had considered but was afraid of getting caught. I had a better proposal/a solution, though, which was to stop taking "medicine" (since taking it made everything worse). Another "medicine"/poison even caused soiling, at 16. There was another that caused asthmatic symptoms but because I wasn't diagnosed with asthma, I wasn't given an inhaler. I often had trouble sleeping, with these drugs always making it worse. They sometimes made me fall asleep during the day, while keeping me up much of or all night. I sometimes threw up, fainted and/or had some bloody spit, on different prescriptions.
They were obsessed with "weening off", though I always felt better by going cold turkey. I am sure it was to make more money and do more harm, that I was told to do otherwise. They often increased the dose and/or added prescriptions, multiple times, while I complained of side effects. As a minor, I wasn't always given a say.
School faculties constantly asked "Are you on drugs?" but I was never on any - except the ones I was put on by quacks.
I was an adult, before I tried pot. It worked like a charm, as a sleep aid and stress relief - if I got the right kind. Otherwise, it just made me groggy - like if I had taken Unisom. With the right kind of pot or enough melatonin, though, I slept a lot better and would be more productive the next day. Melatonin capsules weren't widely available, back then, though they were later commonplace. Obviously, if put on anything at all, I should have been put on the kind of drugs they told me to be off and not the kind they told me that I "needed" to be on.
Pot doesn't seem to have either a positive or negative effect on my O.C.D., with even the same batch permitting different results. Some days are always better than others.
I definitely do sometimes get too Autistic, because of pot, though, but other times have a very pleasant experience.
I have only "Regressed" three times, in my life, rather than just Ageplaying; once to 4, once to 12 and once to 13, in that order. I could still have adult thoughts and reactions, but I had simultaneous feelings - between physical and emotional - that I was a much younger age. Everything was more pronounced, like my Asperger's got turned up to 11. I was high, all those times. After each, I gave up pot - for a while. Even the worst experience with pot was better than any side-effect of the prescriptions. Other times, pot was the only thing that helped or it helped more than melatonin. By the time I could get melatonin, I required an abnormally-high amount. Both it and pot only work, for me, at least, if I use them infrequently. Otherwise, the benefit decreases or eliminates.
Another problem with the S.S.R.I.s is that I have never experienced a true orgasm. I used to get more intense reactions, where my knees would get week and it was more forceful, but not what I hear others describe as the mental or full-body parts of an orgasm. It has been years, since I experienced one of those partial orgasms. Now, it's just a build up and release of pressure that is never really satisfying. I sometimes lose interest, in the midst of it, but force myself to keep going because I read that you should never finish without release.
I often have to rely on diaper and/or submission fantasies, often as the one being dominated, whereas I used to be dominant and had a larger percentage of fantasies without diapers. My fantasies got masochistic, at times, for years, but have turned into mostly fantasies of having someone caressing, feeding, bathing, dressing and generally caring for me - only as an adult. I like to imagine someone fixing my brain, where I'm being re-raised into a functioning adult.
I have talked about all of the non-sexual aspects, before, off of this site, but I've never told anyone that the drugs I was put on by quacks sometimes caused *sexual orientation changes*. I was off of them for about 11 years, before I got back to being straight.
I never wanted to be what I was turned into but it was so difficult turning back to what I was.
Others have reported this, as well, and I am sure many more are still afraid to do so. It isn't our fault. It is that of the drug pushers, hiding behind underserved titles, degrees, lab coats, and armies of corrupt lawyers, lobbyists and politicians.
I don't want to hear about someone who likes being what I don't or didn't have those side-effects. Their feelings and (in)experiences don't excuse what was done to me.
Please, do not put your children on S.S.R.I.s and please know it is not shameful to speak out against what has happened to you. What is shameful is the way we have been treated by those believing they are above the law.
I had headaches or even migraines, along with bedwetting. On one, it was pants wetting. My mom proposed "diapers", during the day, when I was 13, which I honestly had considered but was afraid of getting caught. I had a better proposal/a solution, though, which was to stop taking "medicine" (since taking it made everything worse). Another "medicine"/poison even caused soiling, at 16. There was another that caused asthmatic symptoms but because I wasn't diagnosed with asthma, I wasn't given an inhaler. I often had trouble sleeping, with these drugs always making it worse. They sometimes made me fall asleep during the day, while keeping me up much of or all night. I sometimes threw up, fainted and/or had some bloody spit, on different prescriptions.
They were obsessed with "weening off", though I always felt better by going cold turkey. I am sure it was to make more money and do more harm, that I was told to do otherwise. They often increased the dose and/or added prescriptions, multiple times, while I complained of side effects. As a minor, I wasn't always given a say.
School faculties constantly asked "Are you on drugs?" but I was never on any - except the ones I was put on by quacks.
I was an adult, before I tried pot. It worked like a charm, as a sleep aid and stress relief - if I got the right kind. Otherwise, it just made me groggy - like if I had taken Unisom. With the right kind of pot or enough melatonin, though, I slept a lot better and would be more productive the next day. Melatonin capsules weren't widely available, back then, though they were later commonplace. Obviously, if put on anything at all, I should have been put on the kind of drugs they told me to be off and not the kind they told me that I "needed" to be on.
Pot doesn't seem to have either a positive or negative effect on my O.C.D., with even the same batch permitting different results. Some days are always better than others.
I definitely do sometimes get too Autistic, because of pot, though, but other times have a very pleasant experience.
I have only "Regressed" three times, in my life, rather than just Ageplaying; once to 4, once to 12 and once to 13, in that order. I could still have adult thoughts and reactions, but I had simultaneous feelings - between physical and emotional - that I was a much younger age. Everything was more pronounced, like my Asperger's got turned up to 11. I was high, all those times. After each, I gave up pot - for a while. Even the worst experience with pot was better than any side-effect of the prescriptions. Other times, pot was the only thing that helped or it helped more than melatonin. By the time I could get melatonin, I required an abnormally-high amount. Both it and pot only work, for me, at least, if I use them infrequently. Otherwise, the benefit decreases or eliminates.
Another problem with the S.S.R.I.s is that I have never experienced a true orgasm. I used to get more intense reactions, where my knees would get week and it was more forceful, but not what I hear others describe as the mental or full-body parts of an orgasm. It has been years, since I experienced one of those partial orgasms. Now, it's just a build up and release of pressure that is never really satisfying. I sometimes lose interest, in the midst of it, but force myself to keep going because I read that you should never finish without release.
I often have to rely on diaper and/or submission fantasies, often as the one being dominated, whereas I used to be dominant and had a larger percentage of fantasies without diapers. My fantasies got masochistic, at times, for years, but have turned into mostly fantasies of having someone caressing, feeding, bathing, dressing and generally caring for me - only as an adult. I like to imagine someone fixing my brain, where I'm being re-raised into a functioning adult.
I have talked about all of the non-sexual aspects, before, off of this site, but I've never told anyone that the drugs I was put on by quacks sometimes caused *sexual orientation changes*. I was off of them for about 11 years, before I got back to being straight.
I never wanted to be what I was turned into but it was so difficult turning back to what I was.
Others have reported this, as well, and I am sure many more are still afraid to do so. It isn't our fault. It is that of the drug pushers, hiding behind underserved titles, degrees, lab coats, and armies of corrupt lawyers, lobbyists and politicians.
I don't want to hear about someone who likes being what I don't or didn't have those side-effects. Their feelings and (in)experiences don't excuse what was done to me.
Please, do not put your children on S.S.R.I.s and please know it is not shameful to speak out against what has happened to you. What is shameful is the way we have been treated by those believing they are above the law.