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My names is Anthony Bynum I'm 18 I'm an ABDL I've been one for 3years now
and I ve been in the closet forever I'm also part of the LGBTQ community and have felt like I've been never truly myself. Might come off preaching but I feel so drained emotionally and physically sometimes I get home and feel like just dropping to the ground and I'll feel pissed off and or sad most of the time so I don't know how to feel better I'm getting in my little space a lot less then before Its almost impossible to get into littleSpace
sorry I just need to Cuddle something

sorry if I'm not allow to post something like this but I honestly need help


Thank you so much
 
I'm not sure what you need help with but I suggest a mixture of therapy, anti-depressants, buying a stuffed animal, and finding healthy de-stressors.
 
Hi,
I'm new here and don't know a whole lot about the community, but I do know life and sadness. The best advice I can give is to be true to yourself at all times in all ways. That is the only way to truly be happy no matter what your preferences in life may be. Get out of that dark closet and be you. Those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter, baby. I hope this helps and that your day gets better.
 
So are you still living with your parents? If so are the part of the problem? Are you also in the LGBTQ+ closet as well? Please give us some more detail and perhaps we can better help you.

You're stressing pretty hard and I know how it feels when you really just need to do what you have to do to chill the frack out and everything seems to get in the way of that. Somehow you need to find a way to get somewhere where you could be alone--or with a friend if that's what you need--and be able to get into little space. Perhaps get an inexpensive hotel room for the weekend and have some alone time. Or go camping somewhere where you have little chance of seeing anyone else--bring diapers, stuffies and even a fishing pole. Make sure it's a kid's pole--I found some cool ones for my nephews before.

These can easily be weekend trips if you are still in school.
 
I'd be careful about posting your real name on a forum like this. It could become something you regret in a few years.
Courage though friend, you're going to be ok. It gets better.


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anthonybynum11 said:
My names is Anthony Bynum I'm 18 I'm an ABDL I've been one for 3years now
and I ve been in the closet forever I'm also part of the LGBTQ community and have felt like I've been never truly myself. Might come off preaching but I feel so drained emotionally and physically sometimes I get home and feel like just dropping to the ground and I'll feel pissed off and or sad most of the time so I don't know how to feel better I'm getting in my little space a lot less then before Its almost impossible to get into littleSpace
sorry I just need to Cuddle something

sorry if I'm not allow to post something like this but I honestly need help


Thank you so much
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Honestly, I know how difficult it is when you don't feel mentally right. I have some severe anxiety at times, and honestly the only way that you can move on from these things is to accept it and then keep active im spite of it. I had to force myself to go outside, and then exercise, and I was eventually able to get everything back under control. I've never taken any meds for my anxiety, but understand that SSRI's do work for some people for anxiety and depression, so don't be afraid to go on those if you have to. I guarantee you won't feel like this forever, and you'll look back on it and learn from it as a trying moment in your life. Try exercise it is incredibly powerful.
 
anthonybynum11 said:
My names is Anthony Bynum I'm 18 I'm an ABDL I've been one for 3years now
and I ve been in the closet forever I'm also part of the LGBTQ community and have felt like I've been never truly myself. Might come off preaching but I feel so drained emotionally and physically sometimes I get home and feel like just dropping to the ground and I'll feel pissed off and or sad most of the time so I don't know how to feel better I'm getting in my little space a lot less then before Its almost impossible to get into littleSpace
sorry I just need to Cuddle something

sorry if I'm not allow to post something like this but I honestly need help


Thank you so much
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Guys thanks so much for the quick reply Im sorry for not being very clear
Just going through a lot
SO some points that I did not put

-live with family and brother is on autism Spectrum
-Im Pansexual and In the closet
-Famly has caught me in the past with Diapers
- tried to come out once three years ago
-both family members disowned me

Um i hope that makes it clearer

to also put I just feel trapped
 
anthonybynum11 said:
Guys thanks so much for the quick reply Im sorry for not being very clear
Just going through a lot
SO some points that I did not put

-live with family and brother is on autism Spectrum
-Im Pansexual and In the closet
-Famly has caught me in the past with Diapers
- tried to come out once three years ago
-both family members disowned me

Um i hope that makes it clearer

to also put I just feel trapped
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I was exactly where you are now when I was 18. At least I was an only child and my room was the attic in my parents house. They had a Cape Cod style house and the attic was finished with a lot of side closets, places to hide things like diapers and gay porn magazines. The internet hadn't been invented when I was 18.

I think that because you are 18, staying in the closet, at least for now, is a safer position to be in. I don't know what kind of high school you go to, but mine was a tough school on the Jersey Shore and kids who others thought were gay got a rough time. I would go crazy seeing some of the boys in school who looked beautiful, at least to me. Ironically, my best friend was the starting linebacker for our football team and we were very close. I think he was closeted as well and we occasionally fooled around a little.

That said, it is possible you can find someone who is attracted to you. You have to know the signs, but sexual attraction is strong and sometimes it's hard to hide. I had a few kids either come on to me or at least, hint at it. There are the occasional opportunities.

As for diapers, I kept that on the Q. T. as well, but I eventually got caught. My mom searched my room and found both diapers and gay porn. She sent me to see a psychiatrist at a residential mental facility, and it was scary, so being careful is a very good idea.

I was often frustrated and depressed. College was better as I went to a music conservatory and was out. I had a boy friend, though I kept my attraction to diapers a secret. Things do get better as we get older because we have more freedoms, and college is a good place to find yourself, and express yourself. Hang in there and look to the future. Keep your eyes open to the guys around you because there are probably some guys who are secretly attracted to you.
 
Starrunner said:
I know from experience that living in the closet is utter hell. No one can do it forever. What you're describing is not unusual. It can be physically and emotionally draining when you spend so much of your life 'covering up' who you really are. You need support and you need to have positive friends and influences in your life. I think your best first step would be to access some of the support services in Boston (I read your profile) and get yourself involved with a group. The Boston Alliance of Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual and Transgender Youth would be an excellent place to call. They have a lot of health and support programs, counselling services, meeting spaces, movie nights, etc. You can access it from the link below. At the bottom of the page there are links to a comprehensive list of support resources in your area.

http://www.lgbtcenters.org/Centers/...an-Bisexual-and-Transgender-Youth-BAGLY-.aspx

Also, if you're feeling depressed, Samaritans USA is a non denominational, non-profit group that provides crisis counselling and offers to help to people who are sufferimg from depression.

Samaritans: http://www.samaritansusa.org/boston.php

I know how hard it is to feel alone and isolated. I've lived that way. Remember this: You have the right to be yourself. You have the right to be the person you were meant to be. Don't let anyone hold you back. Surround yourself with good, caring people, whether they are counsellors, friends, doctors, teachers or colleagues. They're out there, you just have to put yourself forward and connect with them. It will be worth the effort.

Keep talking to us and let us know how you are doing.

Hugs, friend.
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Thank you so much
 
dogboy said:
I was exactly where you are now when I was 18. At least I was an only child and my room was the attic in my parents house. They had a Cape Cod style house and the attic was finished with a lot of side closets, places to hide things like diapers and gay porn magazines. The internet hadn't been invented when I was 18.

I think that because you are 18, staying in the closet, at least for now, is a safer position to be in. I don't know what kind of high school you go to, but mine was a tough school on the Jersey Shore and kids who others thought were gay got a rough time. I would go crazy seeing some of the boys in school who looked beautiful, at least to me. Ironically, my best friend was the starting linebacker for our football team and we were very close. I think he was closeted as well and we occasionally fooled around a little.

That said, it is possible you can find someone who is attracted to you. You have to know the signs, but sexual attraction is strong and sometimes it's hard to hide. I had a few kids either come on to me or at least, hint at it. There are the occasional opportunities.

As for diapers, I kept that on the Q. T. as well, but I eventually got caught. My mom searched my room and found both diapers and gay porn. She sent me to see a psychiatrist at a residential mental facility, and it was scary, so being careful is a very good idea.

I was often frustrated and depressed. College was better as I went to a music conservatory and was out. I had a boy friend, though I kept my attraction to diapers a secret. Things do get better as we get older because we have more freedoms, and college is a good place to find yourself, and express yourself. Hang in there and look to the future. Keep your eyes open to the guys around you because there are probably some guys who are secretly attracted to you.
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Yeah I've tried to test waters I don't think anyone at my school really does like and if they are LGBTQ but they are kinda in there own friend groups that have their cruces in said friend groups most of the people at my school are honestly straight and I can tell.

At least I hang out with stoners ( I'm one too) But that goes to show how much I truly hide my true self

Thanks BTW for answering
 
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