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At least it does for me! Obvious disclaimers… everyone is different, there are different degrees and causes of incontinence, etc etc etc.
I have a mix of severe urge and functional UI. Even though I desperately wanted to be incontinent and diaper dependent and I hated every minute of having bladder control, I STILL go down this rabbit hole where I feel lazy when I’m not diapered and I have an accident.
Case in point. Last night I was airing out while doing chores. I made a commitment to try to make it to the bathroom if I could. I knew that was unlikely to happen and I took necessary precautions such as wearing junky pants, not sitting on furniture or going on carpeted areas, etc.
So there I was standing at my desk in my basement office, writing out a bulleted to do list when BAM my bladder goes from zero (empty) to 80 and climbing. This is normal for me. I know from past experience that if I try my hardest to hold it in, I have about 20-30 seconds until I reach 100 and my bladder muscles give out and I start urinating.
I was consciously aware that I would have to immediately stop what I’m doing and run to the toilet if there was to be any hope of me making it on time. And yet I was writing mid-sentence when the urge hit and I had just thought of other important to do items that I wanted to write down before I forgot them. So I frantically scribbled the items down and trying my hardest to keep the muscles clenched. Surprise surprise, it took too long and I ended up peeing my pants.
My first thought was “I could’ve made it, but I prioritized writing down my thoughts over staying dry. Therefore I’m lazy.” This is ALWAYS my conclusion when I’m not padded and I feel the urge to pee and don’t make it to the bathroom on time. “I could’ve made it, but I chose to wait too long…”
It’s so easy to forget that while it’s technically true that I could’ve made it if I ran to the bathroom quicker, it’s unrealistic to be able to do that all the time. It’s not laziness to want to finish writing a few bullet points before you run to the bathroom. That’s why they make adult diapers!
Incontinence is weird.
I have a mix of severe urge and functional UI. Even though I desperately wanted to be incontinent and diaper dependent and I hated every minute of having bladder control, I STILL go down this rabbit hole where I feel lazy when I’m not diapered and I have an accident.
Case in point. Last night I was airing out while doing chores. I made a commitment to try to make it to the bathroom if I could. I knew that was unlikely to happen and I took necessary precautions such as wearing junky pants, not sitting on furniture or going on carpeted areas, etc.
So there I was standing at my desk in my basement office, writing out a bulleted to do list when BAM my bladder goes from zero (empty) to 80 and climbing. This is normal for me. I know from past experience that if I try my hardest to hold it in, I have about 20-30 seconds until I reach 100 and my bladder muscles give out and I start urinating.
I was consciously aware that I would have to immediately stop what I’m doing and run to the toilet if there was to be any hope of me making it on time. And yet I was writing mid-sentence when the urge hit and I had just thought of other important to do items that I wanted to write down before I forgot them. So I frantically scribbled the items down and trying my hardest to keep the muscles clenched. Surprise surprise, it took too long and I ended up peeing my pants.
My first thought was “I could’ve made it, but I prioritized writing down my thoughts over staying dry. Therefore I’m lazy.” This is ALWAYS my conclusion when I’m not padded and I feel the urge to pee and don’t make it to the bathroom on time. “I could’ve made it, but I chose to wait too long…”
It’s so easy to forget that while it’s technically true that I could’ve made it if I ran to the bathroom quicker, it’s unrealistic to be able to do that all the time. It’s not laziness to want to finish writing a few bullet points before you run to the bathroom. That’s why they make adult diapers!
Incontinence is weird.
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