gnd567
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First off, a little backstory. I'm visually impaired/legally blind and unable to drive. I still live at home with my parents because I can't get around on my own and can't afford to live anywhere else. For this reason, I have no real privacy and have to make due the best I can.
Anyway my problem is, no matter how hard I tried, I failed at keeping my diapers a secret. I wish my diapers were still a secret. Ever since my parents found out a couple of years ago when my dad opened my whole case of LittlePawz that were delivered while I was in the shower, there have been numerous awkward moments. Every time a diaper commercial comes on, he starts coughing. Every he hears the word "diaper" he looks my way. Every time I take out the trash, one of them will say "So, whatcha doiin'?" And last night, I was standing in the kitchen, minding my own business, when my mom came up from behind me and patted my ass (something she has NEVER done in my life.) When I asked "What was that?" she responded with "Just checking." I wasn't even wearing at the time but she was checking to see if I was! WTF! So embarrassing!!! It's not funny. It's humiliating and I'm not into that.
And now I'm running low and have to restock again. I hate this most of all because I spend several days in a complete panic waiting for the UPS truck to deliver them when my parents are either out of the house or I am least able to get to the door before they are. Even though they now no better than to dare open my mail again (they don't want to be that shocked again, I suppose), one of them still never fails to say something like "Oh, your SHIT is here" or "Is that your supplies?"
I never wanted anyone to know about this side of me. I'm an extremely private person. I fought off the desire to get real diapers until I was 22 because I was so scared of being discovered. And while we've never talked about it and while they don't seem to think of me as a total freak or anything and they never bring it up directly. I can't help but feel extremely award about it. I just wish it were normal to lie this sorta thing.
Anyway my problem is, no matter how hard I tried, I failed at keeping my diapers a secret. I wish my diapers were still a secret. Ever since my parents found out a couple of years ago when my dad opened my whole case of LittlePawz that were delivered while I was in the shower, there have been numerous awkward moments. Every time a diaper commercial comes on, he starts coughing. Every he hears the word "diaper" he looks my way. Every time I take out the trash, one of them will say "So, whatcha doiin'?" And last night, I was standing in the kitchen, minding my own business, when my mom came up from behind me and patted my ass (something she has NEVER done in my life.) When I asked "What was that?" she responded with "Just checking." I wasn't even wearing at the time but she was checking to see if I was! WTF! So embarrassing!!! It's not funny. It's humiliating and I'm not into that.
And now I'm running low and have to restock again. I hate this most of all because I spend several days in a complete panic waiting for the UPS truck to deliver them when my parents are either out of the house or I am least able to get to the door before they are. Even though they now no better than to dare open my mail again (they don't want to be that shocked again, I suppose), one of them still never fails to say something like "Oh, your SHIT is here" or "Is that your supplies?"
I never wanted anyone to know about this side of me. I'm an extremely private person. I fought off the desire to get real diapers until I was 22 because I was so scared of being discovered. And while we've never talked about it and while they don't seem to think of me as a total freak or anything and they never bring it up directly. I can't help but feel extremely award about it. I just wish it were normal to lie this sorta thing.