JacobHazel
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- Messages
- 6
- Role
- Adult Baby
- Diaper Lover
- Little
Hello.
It's come to my understanding that we aren't supposed to share our names, but i feel more comfortable when i feel like i'm talking to real people, so please just call me Jacob.
I've been aware of my diaper fetish for about 6 or 7 years now, but when i look back at my childhood it's clear it's been there for far longer than i've known.
I'm going to be completely honest with you all and just say it as it is. I absolutely hate it. I hate the fact that i find diapers sexually attractive, and i hate the fact that i can't get aroused without thinking about of diapers.
I've been through it all. The Binges, purges, buying, throwing out, accepting, regretting, all of that.
And no matter what i do i can never seem to find the perfect balance in my life.
Ideally i want to be rid of this fetish all together, but i think i've come to terms with the fact that it's here to stay.
Right now i'm just trying to accept that this diaper stuff is my sexual outlet, but that it isn't anymore than that. I don't want it taking over my life you know.
But what i seem to gather from reading a bunch of posts, and what i've gathered from personal experience is that the more you start accepting the diapers in your life the more they take over your life.
It seems like everyone here at some point has considered going, or are already, 24/7, and that genuinely scares me.
The main advice that's plastered everywhere is "Just accept it", but i'm really not convinced that's the best move.
I want to listen to my body, but my body is deceiving me.
I can sometimes have dreams where i'm in diapers, and days where my brain convinces me that i should wear a diaper for comfort or whatever. But as soon as i put it on, it switches and becomes pure sex. No feelings of safety or comfort, just sex. And as soon as i come in them, i just feel an immense amount of shame and guilt. Suddenly my brain switches up on me and tells me to take that disgusting thing off.
I just don't know what to do. I really want to be able to live a normal life that isn't affected by diapers, but for some reason, i still feel like my attraction to diapers are somehow deeply rooted in my identity. I don't understand it.
I came here to adisc to seek advice from people who've gone through this. I know i'm not the only one.
My DM's are also open if you want to talk privately.
Thanks so much in advance.
It's come to my understanding that we aren't supposed to share our names, but i feel more comfortable when i feel like i'm talking to real people, so please just call me Jacob.
I've been aware of my diaper fetish for about 6 or 7 years now, but when i look back at my childhood it's clear it's been there for far longer than i've known.
I'm going to be completely honest with you all and just say it as it is. I absolutely hate it. I hate the fact that i find diapers sexually attractive, and i hate the fact that i can't get aroused without thinking about of diapers.
I've been through it all. The Binges, purges, buying, throwing out, accepting, regretting, all of that.
And no matter what i do i can never seem to find the perfect balance in my life.
Ideally i want to be rid of this fetish all together, but i think i've come to terms with the fact that it's here to stay.
Right now i'm just trying to accept that this diaper stuff is my sexual outlet, but that it isn't anymore than that. I don't want it taking over my life you know.
But what i seem to gather from reading a bunch of posts, and what i've gathered from personal experience is that the more you start accepting the diapers in your life the more they take over your life.
It seems like everyone here at some point has considered going, or are already, 24/7, and that genuinely scares me.
The main advice that's plastered everywhere is "Just accept it", but i'm really not convinced that's the best move.
I want to listen to my body, but my body is deceiving me.
I can sometimes have dreams where i'm in diapers, and days where my brain convinces me that i should wear a diaper for comfort or whatever. But as soon as i put it on, it switches and becomes pure sex. No feelings of safety or comfort, just sex. And as soon as i come in them, i just feel an immense amount of shame and guilt. Suddenly my brain switches up on me and tells me to take that disgusting thing off.
I just don't know what to do. I really want to be able to live a normal life that isn't affected by diapers, but for some reason, i still feel like my attraction to diapers are somehow deeply rooted in my identity. I don't understand it.
I came here to adisc to seek advice from people who've gone through this. I know i'm not the only one.
My DM's are also open if you want to talk privately.
Thanks so much in advance.