omuryu
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Hey, you can call me Ryu. I mention to a therapist of mine on current struggles I have about the fetish(didn't specify diapers, cuz I didn't feel too comfortable to do so), and they recommended I go to a support group forum and I happened to find this one, and I'm gonna give it a shot.
Not really sure why, but...diaper kinda imagery in tv shows kinda...tickled me as a kid I guess. I dunno how else to put it. I guess my interest peaked a little when seeing that stuff. And after seeing joke videos online involving diapers, I just started to search them more and more into it. I remember when I was like 12 or 13 experimenting on diapers. Like...I'd take some of my little sisters (and tape them around my waist with ACTUAL tape since I was and still am a fat fuck) and even do the warm hand on water thing. I remember going to "Ineedamommy.com" not really knowing what it was and then some family members saw me on it and I was fucking made fun of for it and I hope after all this time they forgot about it. Point is, I've been in this fetish for a long time, but I still have difficulty understanding what I do like about it and how I gotta engage with it.
I don't really wear them, nor do I think I wanna wear them. I wanna say I'm more into seeing other people wearing them or seeing art of it, but I do tend to RP a lot and the characters I rp tend to be the ones diapered. I think wetting and messing is pretty much gross and a turn off for me. At the least messing because it just...doesn't sit right with me. So yeah, I'm having trouble...fully understanding where I fall into when it comes to the fetish and I feel like I need help getting a better idea. I'm 25 now, so I feel like I need some idea on why this fetish just hits me the way it does. Maybe it's a case of me not understanding sexual attraction all to well, and I can use some help with that too. What I'm saying is...I need some other people to talk to and help me understand a bit better, so feel free to comment.
Not really sure why, but...diaper kinda imagery in tv shows kinda...tickled me as a kid I guess. I dunno how else to put it. I guess my interest peaked a little when seeing that stuff. And after seeing joke videos online involving diapers, I just started to search them more and more into it. I remember when I was like 12 or 13 experimenting on diapers. Like...I'd take some of my little sisters (and tape them around my waist with ACTUAL tape since I was and still am a fat fuck) and even do the warm hand on water thing. I remember going to "Ineedamommy.com" not really knowing what it was and then some family members saw me on it and I was fucking made fun of for it and I hope after all this time they forgot about it. Point is, I've been in this fetish for a long time, but I still have difficulty understanding what I do like about it and how I gotta engage with it.
I don't really wear them, nor do I think I wanna wear them. I wanna say I'm more into seeing other people wearing them or seeing art of it, but I do tend to RP a lot and the characters I rp tend to be the ones diapered. I think wetting and messing is pretty much gross and a turn off for me. At the least messing because it just...doesn't sit right with me. So yeah, I'm having trouble...fully understanding where I fall into when it comes to the fetish and I feel like I need help getting a better idea. I'm 25 now, so I feel like I need some idea on why this fetish just hits me the way it does. Maybe it's a case of me not understanding sexual attraction all to well, and I can use some help with that too. What I'm saying is...I need some other people to talk to and help me understand a bit better, so feel free to comment.
