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Ok, I am writing this because I feel like being nasty, and I need to express my anger. I am not perfect, this is my personnal experience and yours may be different.
I have some big emotional troubles. As a child I have been beaten by my parents, and of course what do other childs and adults do when they see that (people have a radar for it, they detect you, how carefully you try to hide it) ? They continue the abuse.
I am proud of what I have become, my youth was a real struggle, and I allways have chosen the right thing to do : being clever. More and more clever. I even have developped some autistic tendancies - I have a lot of respect for autistic people, I am a perfectly "normal" person, but I understand how relaxing resolving complex problems can be (and I know that there are autistic persons on this forum. I mean no offense, and I may be wrong. Don't hesitate to correct me !).
What was I saying ? I have post-traumatic stress. So, I have looked for professionnal help. The only relief I found was on my wallet
Madame, Monsieur, extraits choisis du festival :
And sorry, it is very nasty, but I feel much release ! I had to scream it to the world : a**holes do exist
I have some big emotional troubles. As a child I have been beaten by my parents, and of course what do other childs and adults do when they see that (people have a radar for it, they detect you, how carefully you try to hide it) ? They continue the abuse.
I am proud of what I have become, my youth was a real struggle, and I allways have chosen the right thing to do : being clever. More and more clever. I even have developped some autistic tendancies - I have a lot of respect for autistic people, I am a perfectly "normal" person, but I understand how relaxing resolving complex problems can be (and I know that there are autistic persons on this forum. I mean no offense, and I may be wrong. Don't hesitate to correct me !).
What was I saying ? I have post-traumatic stress. So, I have looked for professionnal help. The only relief I found was on my wallet
Madame, Monsieur, extraits choisis du festival :
- My father had some sexually explicit behaviors with me when I was a kid. PSY answer : "You are still affectively dependant on your father". No. Never been excited about my father's dick.
- PSY quote "What did you feel when your mother was beating you ?". Hmmmmm.... Pain. Physical and mental. You could have guessed.
- "Ah, yes, so you invest yourself a lot in your work ?". Congratulations, this was the 4th session and at the first contact I told her that the reason why I came was because I worked like crazy and did not get the material reward for it. This madam had second sight for sure.
And sorry, it is very nasty, but I feel much release ! I had to scream it to the world : a**holes do exist